My Thoughts

realization

Happy New Year!!

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slowly losing interest in the world around. the things that used to capture all attention, all the curiosity in a human. slowly realizing it doesn't matter. slowly realizing you could take every possession, every feeling ever felt and throw it into an abyss and everything would continue as if it was normal.

slowly realizing every creature, every animal has its own agenda, something they have to follow. no one else has the same one, the same life. it may connect somehow, may cross paths, but it's never the same. every one controls their own life. it's so..... unique. so uncharacteristically different.

but god forbid anyone think for their own or have different opinions than the person near them. god forbid someone, anyone doesn't have the same thought process that you have. god FORBID people stand up for what they believe in.

i'm slowly realizing no one matters in the world around us. no human, animal, or thing changes the way the earth tilts or what animal gets eaten in this doomed world.

i'm slowly realizing nothing matters. slowly realizing the person in the store that was nice to you isn't gonna remember in a month, the ride customer at your store was just one rude customer at your store.

i'm slowly realizing nothing matters. and it sucks. it sucks so much.