My Thoughts

What the fuuuuuck

So, I've never really been scared of storms before, and they've never made me feel unsafe, but lightning just hit less than 2 miles away from my house and honestly? Kinda fucking terrified. And all I want to do is text someone that I still kinda consider my best friend but it's awkward cause we dated and like..... it sucks. Idk I just need to be comforted. And like, I want to text him but it's deeeefinitely not a good idea. I want to talk because I miss him, and not as in I want to get back together, but I miss talking to him. I still have his quotes in my phone cause I'm a crackhead and document all of the stupid things everyone says and I'm going through them and just, man I miss hearing the stupid shit that comes out of their mouths.
I don't know. I'm real scared of this rain and all of it is bullshit and I legit only want to talk to him and that's not good, like really not good.
Aaaah I'm scared. FUCK.