My Thoughts

Struggle

I'm going through a struggle in my life right now. It's not a bad one, it's not something that is a huge issue. It's just a struggle that has been bothering me.
I'm constantly changing my mind on whether I'm content with my life or not. At this time, I know I love my relationship. My boyfriend is absolutely amazing and I wouldn't change that aspect in my life for anything. That, I know that's not changing.
But my friends, god my friends are giving me a great deal of confusion. Don't get me wrong I love all of my friends. I love talking to them, hanging out with them, texting them. But I don't have anyone that I completely confide in anymore. My best friend of a year and a half decided that he was in love with me and I couldn't deal with that. I told him I was taking a step back and now I barely talk to him. And what's the worst part about that? The worst part is I feel like I'm better off without him. I'm so much more emotionally stable than I was with seeing him everyday. He was slowly ripping me into shreds. And that kills me.
My other friends are slowly falling apart. There's so much drama and I love all of them. I have one full group and then two smaller groups. The second smaller group is a few of the people from the first that don't feel a part of that group anymore. And the thing is, I just started getting back into the first group when the second decided to split off. Now, I'm torn in between these two groups and I don't know what to do. I can't figure out what to do.
So one day I'll say, you know, I'm perfectly content with my life right now. And then the next, I'm wondering what to decide, if I need to start over, I'm wondering how I'm going to get out of this.
Life is rough, but I'll work it out.
I just hope they know I love all of them.