My Thoughts

You dont care

I know you don't care, I know you probably won't read this. You probably won't think about it. You won't even think about me. But I loved you. I loved you so much. I loved you to the point where nothing in the world mattered as long as I got to see you. As long as you were there, I could do anything.
But I guess you didn't feel the same way.
What do I need to do to get someone to love me the way that I love them. What can I do to get the love that I want and that I work hard for. I can't get that I guess. Everyone I love just ends up hurting me.
You don't care that I'm hurting. You don't care that I don't want to end this. You only think about how you're feeling.
I wasn't ready for it to end. I wasn't ready to let go of you. I'm still not, but I know I have to. I know this won't work out. It's not even close to working out. But god, god it hurts to know that you're probably already moving on. You're probably out with someone else while I'm here thinking about you.
I'm letting you go. I'm letting you be free, out of my mind. I'm giving up on this.
I'm giving up on the hope that you'll show up at my door and just say I want you. I don't want to lose you. You're mine now and forever and there's no stopping that. I'm giving up hoping you'll realize I love you no matter what happens, no matter what. Love is accepting someone for everything they are, even their flaws, and that's exactly what I did. I thought you did it too, but I guess not.
I guess I'm just bound to get hurt any time I try to find love. I guess I'm just bound to die alone.
You don't care that I'm writing this. You don't care that I'm broken inside, and I'm never going to be whole again.