My Thoughts

hurt

you scarred me.
you pulled me into your trap and made me think you were an amazing, wonderful person.
and then you hurt me.
over. and over. and over again.
and i don't know why i let you.
you damage me.
yet i continue to love you.
i give you everything i have.
i love you with everything. i have.
yet somehow, that isn't good enough for you.
for some reason, you seek more.
and you break me down in the process.
and i'm too weak to stop you.
you embedded your hooks in me.
i'm a fish on the hook.
i can't pry myself off.
i'm trapped.
but i can't keep getting hurt.
all. i've been doing is getting hurt.
i have hurt you once.
and it wasn't nearly as awful as the multiple times you've hurt me.
it's unhealthy.
it's so. terribly. unhealthy.
and i know it's unhealthy.
but you're like candy to me.
no matter how many times i tell myself no. no matter how many times other people tell me to get rid of you, to not get another taste of you...
i take another bite.
you're irresistible.
and i don't know how i will survive you.