Dean’s POV
I don’t know what I’m feeling.
I don’t feel like going out the plane. Ayoko ngang bumaba.
This is home, I know. Pero sa kabilang banda, alam kong wala naman akong uuwian dito.
This is the saddest place.
Walang Renee...walang baby Angelo. Haaay
FLASHBACK:
“hon...agahan mong umuwi ha?”
“sure honey...may gusto ka bang ipabili? O kaya kainin? Name it and i’ll bring it home...”--- nakangiti kong tanong kay Renee.
We’ve been married for 3 months now.
And our baby is doing fine.
Puro supplements lang ang iniinom ng asawa ko, at ang sabi ng doctor, the baby is healthy, I’m so happy to hear that, pero alam ko na sa kabila nun, yung katawan naman ni Renee ang bumibigay.
And it’s killing me everytime I think of her, leaving me and our baby.
“hon...gusto ko ng coca cola...yung malamig ha!”
“but...”
“pretty please?”--- gumamit pa sya ng puppy-dog-eyes, aw.
“hmm..pero konti lang ha?”
“promise!”
“okay...maaga akong uuwi...bye hon...”
“bye...Im gonna miss you Dean..”
“tsk. Call me hon...”
“I’m gonna miss you hon...”--- then gave her sweetest smile.
Palabas na ako ng gate pero parang may humihila sa akin pabalik ng bahay.
Iba to sa mga nakaraang araw, parang ayokong umalis. Parang may bumubulong sa akin na huwag umalis ng bahay
Tsk.
Paranoid na yata ako. Ipinagpatuloy ko iyong lakad ko hanggang sa tapat ng kotse. Nang alalabas ko na sa bulsa ng coat ko iyong susi,
“shit!”--- napacuss ako because it slipped on my hand and dropped it in the drainage’s hole. Pakshit naman!
I took off my coat and tried to get the keys. Mabuti nalang at medyo mababaw lang.
Even while I’m driving, ilang beses akong namatayan ng kotse, hindi ko alam kung minamalas talaga ako. Hindi ko agad narealizre that all happened that day were all signs that I shouldn’t leave Renee
That I should have just stayed home and took care of her and our baby.
Because after I left the house, she was again sent to the hospital.
“yaya, what happened?”
“eh sir...Si ma’am ho... pagkatapos nyong umalis, hindi ko naman namalayang umakyat pala sa hagdag, na out of balance ho”
