Love like never before

Chapter 6: Seiya Pov

A/n: a loooong chapter coming lol

"So your friends told her everything?" Terra asked while smoking a cigarette.

"Yep they did against my wishes." I said and took a gulp of the strong liquor I was drinking.

"Damn. What are you going to do?" She asked looking at me after blowing out a puff of smoke.

"I don't know...." I said more to my self than her. We were sitting on patio by her pool. After I found out  they told Ruby' our secret,I was beyond furious. I yelled,cursed and threw things. Then when all that was out my system ,I went into my room, took a shower and left back outside the house.

They didn't try to stop me , in fact I think they were too scared to. I knew Yaten could feel the anger burning off me in waves. I felt just a bit bad for acting like that to them , but I was just so angry, and I felt betrayed. I'm their leader and they went against my orders.

It's an ability that only the leader of the Starlights have. The three of us like to refer to it as my leader voice. When I use my leader voice ,my normal voice takes on a commanding tone and drops two octaves lower. The part that makes them obey is that it sends out subtle wavelengths that make them obey, and they wouldn't be able to resist if they tried. Taiki explained it in a really scientific term once but it just went way over my head. The thing about using my leader voice is I don't like it because their my friends,sisters, and I don't like feeling like I'm controlling them. It's bad enough our lives are already controlled by our duty to protect because of what and who we are....

"Hey I have a question for you though." I heard Terra ask, breaking me out of my thoughts. I took another swig from the bottle I was holding.

"What is it?" I asked and looked at her. Terra hesitated for a minute before speaking.

"Will you go back with her?"

I blinked,the alcohol taking affect of my mind , sending my thoughts to a jumble again.

"What?" I asked confused and Terra looked at me seriously.

"You know.. your ex? Will you go back with her now that she knows?" She asked still looking at me.

"Oh.Uh I-I Don't know. I haven't thought about it Really." I told her truthfully and it's true I haven't and that's mostly because I wasn't expecting her to find out, nor the reaction I had to her finding out.

"Well I think you shouldn't . I think there's someone better out there. Someone who will truly understand you." Terra replied staring at me. I smiled and giggled at her.

"And do you believe that's you?" I asked laughing.

"I could be." She whispered and leaned in really close to me smiling. We've had moments like this lately. Where one of us would start a flirty joke and we would be close like this,with a charge in the air between us. I'm sure it was obvious there was a physical attraction between us. Terra was hot. With her non binary (as she calls it) style and tattoos and slight boyish looks, how could she not be. When she wore make up on rare occasions she was beautiful. Terra also has a sweet side too. When my emotions are getting best of me, and not even the alcohol is enough to stop the pain, she's there. She would hold me and just let me cry on her shoulder or tell me corny jokes until I had no choice but laugh. Terra was slowly becoming one of my best friends and yes I know she has feelings for me but I just can't let it go down that road. I like my friendship with her and I don't want to ruin that. I still care for Ruby. Terra is beautiful in her own way but Ruby..... right now she's everything to me. Whatever physical attraction is between me and Terra, it's just that. Physical. And I have a feeling it's mostly the alcohol talking on my end.

I forced a laugh and pushed her shoulder. "Unfortunately I'm damaged goods so you can find some someone better." I tell her winking.
Terra smirked at me and stroked her chin like she was stroking a beard.

"I'll win your heart eventually Seiya." She said with a flirtatious smile.

I looked at her raising an eyebrow. "Is that so?" I said to her and quickly climb into her lap. Don't ask why I did , I told you the liquor was talking. I watched Terras eyes grew darker and her breathing hitched. I leaned forward and brushed my lips against her cheek. "And how exactly do you plan on doing that?" I whispered seductively.

I felt her hands wrap around my waist trying to hold me to her.
"Let me kiss you and I'll show you." She mumbled her voice dropping lower and her fingers trailing lower to my butt. God I wanted this so bad right now....

I just wanted to let go for a little while. What would it hurt? There didn't have to be any strings attached, no feelings at least on my side. I was about to kiss her,when an image flashed before my eyes. It was of the last time I saw Ruby.

When she was leaving my room and looked at me with tearful eyes and a look of disappointment. I flinched and quickly climbed off Terra. God what did I almost do?.....

I chuckled awkwardly and grabbed the bottle of liquor.

"Well good luck with that." I deadpanned to Terra before taking another drink.

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Now here I stand 2 days later,in our living room,staring at Ruby and she looked at me. I haven't seen her in months but this is not how I wanted to see her or her me. I was a sweaty mess from the gym and the alcohol was leaving my system, so my pain was coming back.

I was actually planning on spending time with my sisters, while at the gym I realized I missed them even if I was still upset that' they told our secret. But now looking at Ruby, I just wanted to kissed her and run from her at the same time and the latter was winning.

I tore my eyes from Ruby and looked at Yaten and Taiki,waiting for an explanation. Taiki stood up and walked to me cautiously like I was a hostile creature.

"Hey Seiya. So uh as you can see, we have company. Why don't you come join us." She said with a smile,and put her hand on my shoulder.

"Well maybe not yet. You need a shower first." Yaten said wrinkling her nose at me in disgust. I rolled my eyes and stuck my middle finger up. Yaten rolled her eyes and stuck her finger right back. Taiki laughed beside me but wasn't her laugher that I dwelled on. The laugh that sounded like music to my ears.

Automatically I looked at Ruby and before I could look away she met my gaze and smiled at me. I quickly averted my eyes and looked at my friends. "Well you guys are right about that shower. It's literally calling my name so you guys have fun." I smile at them ,avoiding the feeling of Ruby's gaze the whole time. I turned away headed for the stairs ,clenching the strap of my gym bag in a vice grip. I could feel my emotions getting out of control.

"Wait Seiya." Taiki walked up to me and spoke quietly. "Why don't you come back down and hang with us Seiya." I shook my head immediately.

"I can't do this right now." I said and stepped away.

"Seiya just give her a chance. She doesn't seem scared , just curious. She wants to talk to you. Please don't push her away Seiya." Taiki pleaded with me, her eyes begging me to reconsider.

"The point was she wasn't supposed to know ,for her own safety but you two disobeyed my orders. So you deal with any questions she has. This is yours and Yaten responsibly now ,not mine." I snapped ,my emotions finally getting the best of me and I turned and sprinted upstairs.

When I got in my room I dropped my bag on the floor and walked to my dresser and digging under my clothes. I pulled out the bottle of liquor I had hidden in there, and unscrewed it ,drinking half the bottle. I pulled it away and screwed the top back on it and clutched it to my chest while I walked to my bed, and sat there.

Almost instantly I felt that dizzy warm affect take over me and I smiled a drunken smile, almost giddy with relief from the pain I felt going away. "That's much better. Now that shower." I said giggling to my self. I got up and sat the bottle down before heading to the shower discarding my clothes along the way.

A/n: I hope you all enjoyed this chapter I'll update soon.