Today I found myself
Reminiscing on my childhood
The long nights turned
into long days
N' the long days into weeks
Weeks into months
Eventually the months were years
I was eleven years old
When my father came into my life
I was thirteen
When I realized I was free
Some days were good
N some were so bad
I could hardly breathe
At one point in my life
I thought...
This must be normal
These feelings and urges
Made me feel so...
Alone
I felt no one truly knew me
No one understood
Where I was coming from
I was just a child
But because I wasn't his
It made it all ok
I wish I was strong enough
To tell you mom
Because if I did
At seventeen
He wouldn't have tried
Then succeeded again
He said you're older now
As he laid on top of me
Dripping sweat in my eyes
And in my mouth
I am supposed to feel stronger
Right now I feel weak
The one thing I wanted to keep
Locked away
Became the weapon
That shattered my growth
My strength stolen from me
He made out
Like a thief in the night
I promised myself
To stay quiet
I promised myself
After the man I called Dad
Did it all over again
I wouldn't give
Any man that strength
Now I'll have to relive it
Every time I look in his face
