I lay there
As still as death
Trying my damndest
Not to wake
The deceased
My heart beats in my ears
And tears swell
In my eyes
I can't possibly
Understand these emotions
That have chocked me awake
I cannot breathe
I CANNOT BREATHE
All I can think is
Lie still
...
Breathe
Breathe
Breathe
...
I pause in the moment
Trying to teach myself
To breathe again
Your body beside me
Jerks...
Then your arm reaches out
N' your hand so small
& nimble
Touches me mine
A single breath is let out
...
Breathing is now restored
My chest heavy
My thoughts swarming me
Like I just disturbed a hornets nest
There they are
Stinging me from every side
I can't explain this feeling
I can't tell you why
This happens
Or why I feel numb
I can't tell you why
The smallest of tears
Crept from my tear duct
N' rolled down my cheek
I can tell you that
I put this mask on everyday
Pretending to be happy
Pretending to feel
Mimicking all the emotions
My close friends
Express around me
I want to feel
I want to be that smile
That glows when on your face
I want to be
Alive
To breathe without
The struggle
I sat there
Listening to to her breathe
My ears fixated
On the air coming in
& out of your lungs
I can't breathe
I manage to muster
From under my breathe
My chest is tightening
The walls are closing In on me
I CANNOT BREATHE
