I didn't know
How deep the cuts were
Until I was at a loss for wordsI felt this pain up in my chest
That made living
Hurt just a little moreI was at a war within myself
The blood was pouring out
All over the floorThis reflection was staring at me
Cocked the gun
Then pointed it at meI didn't flinch
The demons
Circling meLike water the drain
I was looking at a person
Not realizing
Who was staring backTears swelled within my eyes
As I tried to take my own life
This can't be itAs I set there
On the floor
Begging myselfTo continue fight
To hold on just a little longer
Tellin myselfThat I am stronger
The pain too deep
Within my heartI can't keep living...
If I just shut life's door
Swiftly behind me
Then no one would knowThe pain my body was enduring
The fight I kept having
Everyday dayLike the last
A battle damn near impossible
To winI ain't want them
To remember me this way
I wasn't always this broken
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