Jenalyn: From the Inside (#3) [Complete]

Chapter 73: Hayden

Friday, 1:40 P.M. EST

My legs are still wobbly from the orgasm Evan had given me, once again only worrying about me and leaving himself out of our interaction.

Jena was only slightly frustrated that’s all she got because she somehow convinced her monster that it was all the same in those moments.

Sex is sex is sex.

But it’s not. It’s so not. There are different kinds of sex, for sure- and though he thinks that whatever he’s doing is the sex “I need?”

That can’t be further from the truth.

Though physically satisfied with the orgasm, Jena’s monster still craves something more. Last night with Ryan wasn’t enough; the monster wants so much more, and Evan only made it worse.

It’s like waking a baby up to eat, only to rub the bottle on her lips without letting her suckle. Jena's monster is starving, and he's teasing her.

The thought of Ryan brings him to my mind. I haven’t seen him since last night when he dropped me back off at my room. He told me he worked today; I hope he’s alright.

I know he was in shock after actually having got to fuck me last night, but it didn’t seem like it was in a bad way!

The NA meeting that all but Sarah had to attend closes up, reminding me of how distracted I am. The fact that an hour-long meeting has passed, and I have no recollection of it says a lot.

“Earth to Hayden,” Ren says in a flat one, waving her hand in front of my face. “They’re going to put on another movie- Sarah’s choice, I’m sure. Quiet time?” 

She’s been pretty normal with me since showing up at NA. I heard she’d missed group though; I wonder where she was?

“Uh- sure,” I tell her, my voice distracted. I pull myself from my seat to follow her.

I still can’t believe she’s not sleeping with Evan. I can’t bring myself to follow up on it though; it doesn’t feel like the right time.

I make my way back to the room with Ren, only somewhat wondering what her intentions are with her knowledge of my sneak outs with Ryan.

She’s probably just going to hold it over my head, which I’m not worried about. But I mean, if she’s not really fucking Evan- what do I have to hold over her head by threatening exposure?

I don’t realize Ren has been talking until she turns to me expecting a response. 

“So do you want to?” she asks, repeating the question she asked that I didn’t hear. “He said he’d sneak alcohol in within the next two nights that he works, so we could party! Nothing you do now can compare to what you already did to that baby, so it’s worth it if you think about it!” 

I have no idea what she’s talking about but nod my head anyway. 

I’m sure a shot or two every once in a while won’t hurt the baby, right? 

She grows excited, clapping her hands together. “Cool!” she exclaims with a smile so huge on her face that it barely fits. “I’ve never had a threesome before!”