Sunday, 8:17 PM EST
The going away party that the staff threw for me was cute. I think it was more of an excuse for them to bring in something besides hospital food for everybody to pig out on, but still cute!
I didn’t stay for the whole duration of it though. I snuck off into my room for quiet time, as I have so many other times during my stay here.
There’s less than an hour before everybody finishes up hygiene and makes their way to the bedrooms. Ryan should be down to pick Ren up shortly after that. I’m not sure why, but I can’t shake this weird feeling I have in my stomach.
Like I forgot something…
It just seems kind of stupid now. Why did I do all of this? Because of Ren? And if so, why? Because she reminded me of a part of myself?
I make no sense.
A part of me wishes I could take it all back and have utilised the help that this place was trying to give me. Another part is still trying to tell me that I’m doing the right thing by getting rid of Ren.
I don’t know anymore; I’ve never been good at disputing the arguments in my head.
The only thing I can do… is nothing.
Attempting to do anything else would risk bringing Jena out again, and I can't have that. I'm leaving tomorrow... and I'm supposed to be leaving as a better person.
I'm supposed to be leaving as Hayden.
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Jenalyn: From the Inside (#3) [Complete]
General FictionAfter running away to Pennsylvania and getting into trouble again, Jenalyn finds herself in a mental rehabilitation center. She's trying to straighten out her mind so that she can give her baby girl a shot at living a better life than she had. Jena...
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