Jenalyn: From the Inside (#3) [Complete]

Chapter 40: Hayden

Sunday, 6:00 P.M. EST

I’ve decided I’m not going to take my meds anymore. I sat here for the last 15 minutes of quiet time listening to Ren talk to herself about how much Evan would do for her.

Well, hearing it. I haven’t been listening because I don’t give a fuck.

The only thing I’m thankful for in what Tyler did with Sophie is the distraction it’s providing me. 

I haven’t been able to get it off my mind since Gage told me…

I started off angry. When I found out he slept with her, I was furious. Gage kept telling me it was an accident, and that I should learn to forgive Tyler like he had to learn to forgive me. 

He didn’t forgive me if he could turn around and fuck his ex while I’m here getting help though. 

That’s when anger turned into depression. Visiting time was over; And Gage left, pleading with me to forgive his brother instead of listening to where I had to come from.

His pleading only showed me how bad this really is. 

I mean, Ty and I separating would be Gage’s heaven any other time. Under any other circumstance! He wouldn’t have sat there pleading with me to forgive his brother! I mean... sure, he’d probably feel bad about it, but he would not pass up the opportunity to fill Ty’s shoes!

But Jena fucked Hayden’s shit up so bad that not even Gage wants me now!

This led me to being resigned. I don’t even care anymore…

Hayden is ruined.

What’s the point? Why try? Why sit in here, day after day, pushing myself past my boundaries just to try to get better for the same people that turn around and stab me in the back? 

Harper hasn’t even come to visit...

I’m just going to stop taking my meds; Stop this entire treatment plan. It’s pointless!

I’m over it all. Jenalyn can take over. She can have it all.