Jenalyn: From the Inside (#3) [Complete]

Chapter 94: Hayden

Sunday, 11:52 PM EST

I can tell it upset Ryan I’m leaving tomorrow. Either that, or he’s still hung up on the fact that I acted so short with him earlier. He’s putting on a front though, and trying to act normal while he tells me about how much Ren frustrated him.

“I’m pretty sure she wanted me to stay up here with her so we’d have sex or something... I stayed long enough to make sure she knew the rules!” he tells me, a look of disgust passing over his face. “I almost had to remind her about you!”

He laughs, but I can’t seem to shake the disconnection I’ve been feeling. He’s going to have to work a lot harder to help me bring Jena out.

“What about me?” I ask, trying to steer him in the right direction for his own sake. I’m sure he’d be disappointed if I kept up my current demeanor for the rest of our break.

He doesn’t miss a beat before shoving a familiar smile across his lips. “About how you’re the only girl this guy wants to get with,” he says with confidence in his voice. “And about how I only crave you…”

It helps a little… slowly but surely.

Jena knows I plan on tightening her leash after tonight. She knows this may be the last sense of release she’ll find for her monster, so she isn’t going to turn it down.

I let myself loosen up as she crawls into the front of my mind. I lean my back against the brick wall behind me. “How will you survive after I leave?” I ask, a joking tone able to make its way to my voice. “Nobody will ever live up to the standards I’ve set. You know that, right?”

Ryan’s brows fall flat despite being aware of the joking tone in my voice. He shrugs his shoulders and cocks his head to the side. 

“Can I get your phone number or something…?” he asks after a second, his voice nervous. 

Ugh. I thought that he’d know all of this was… a here thing. That I never planned on bringing him into Hayden’s life because, well… he was company! I like him and all! He’s a sweet kid! But lets be real.

I force the conversation past it, unable to bring myself to tell him any of that. 

“That’s for another time,” I say, scooting closer to him as I allow Jena to take more and more control. “Do you know what time it is now?”

The familiar smile returns, just like I suspected it would. “What time?” he asks. 

I lean into him until his lips are level with my neck, allowing him to plant soft kisses while his hands explore my body. 

Jena is full-fledged after about a minute and a half. She assists him in removing my shirt, ignoring the brisk night air that brushes across my skin. 

“I don’t want this to be the end…” he groans, planting a kiss on my chest before pulling down the wireless bra this place makes me wear. “I want to be with you, Hayden.”

I say nothing, pretending to be too wrapped up in the ecstasy to pay him any mind. He continues for a moment, finding my nipple with his warm tongue before he pulls away from me.

“What’s that…?” he asks, his voice monotone. I follow his eyes to my chest, only for my stomach to twist up.