Maybe this time

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Dionne's

Hindi ko malaman ang gagawin habang sumusunod ako sa Nanay ni Cassie.

Para ng lalabas yung puso ko sa kaba.

Huminto at nanatili akong nakatayo ng umupo yung Nanay ni Cassie sa Sala.

"Upo ka." She said.

Sa taranta ko muntik pa ako madapa, mabilis ako umupo magkaharap kami.

"So Dionne right?"

Tumango ako.

"Full name?"

"Dionne Margarette Galanza Wong po."

"Galanza? Jema Galanza?"

"Mama ko po."

"She used to be my friend, I'm from Adamson too."

"Talaga po."

"Fhen cheated on her because of me."

Nagulat ako sa narinig ko.

"Well it's all in the past naman po mam, Mama is happy now with Dada."

"Deanna Wong?"

Tumango ako.

"She got famous noon kasi she has so many flings, nagkaroon pa sila ng away ng ex nila in social media." She said.

"We-ll as I said kanina it's in the past na po, for sure they learned from there mistakes naman."

I'm getting uncomfortable with this kind of conversation, I don't know why she needs to tell me those things.

"Dionne if I tell you that Cassie is Me and Fhen's daughter what will you feel?"

"Nothing po, noon when she's still living with her as her Mom, nung una naiinis ako kasi nga I know Mama and her used to be lovers, but when I fell in love with her I realized it doesn't matter at all."

"Kahit kanino pa siyang anak ok lang, her parents doesn't define her, she has her own personality."

"What if I don't like you for her." She said.

Medyo bumigat ang pakiramdam ko.

I knew it kagaya na naman noon.

I smile sadly.

"Ok lang po, I respect it. We can't please everyone, but we can respect our differences."

Tumango ulit ito.

"Will you leave her? Because I don't want you for her."

I really got sensitive pag ganito na yung usapan, naalala ko parin kasi noon, kung pano ako pinagtabuyan.

Naalala ko parin kung paano kami nag hiwalay.

Am I really not worth it of her?

Bakit lage nalang ganito?

"Bakit ka umiiyak?" She asked

Hindi ko napansin na umiiyak na pala ako.

"Wala po. It's just that I feel like I don't deserve her." I wipe my tears.

"Ayaw niyo agad palage sakin para kay Cassie and I don't know why? Hindi niyo man lang ako binibigyan ng chance to know me first before disliking me."

"You asked me if I'll leave her because you don't want me for her, my answer is No po I will not leave her because of  anyone."

"Why?" She asked.

"Because I love her, Mahal ko siya iiwan ko lang siya kung hindi na siya sakin masaya, pero hanggat masaya siya sakin patuloy ko lang siya papasayahin kagaya noon."