You're Not Alone

Chapter 10

Clarke's POV

„You didn't!"
„I did. I don't know why I was shocked and confused." Raven and Octavia were sitting on my bed as I told them what happened earlier this morning.
„Clarke, you two have feelings for each other. Everyone can see it, even Bellamy." Octavia said.
„I don't-"
„Come on we've talked about this before. Look we won't judge you it's okay." Raven said while holding my shoulder.
„I don't know Rae. Im not ready to be with anyone. Not yet."
„Then tell her and don't push her away. Im sure she will understand. She likes you Clarke." I smiled at what Raven said. I do too. I just don't want to hurt her by telling her.
„Think about it and when you see her, tell her you need to talk." Octavia said when they were leaving my room.
It was lunch time. I walked in with others and saw Lexa sitting in the corner of the hall. I was full of anger, happiness and worry at the same time.
„Where the hell do you think you were?!" I said quietly but loud enough for her to hear.
„Why do you care? I thought you were the one who told me to go away." She said not looking at me.
„I didn't mean it Lexa-" I really didn't.
„Yeah which other things you didn't mean too? Just go to hell Clarke."
These are the words I never wanted to hear from her. She walked away and I stood there with tears in my eyes but I couldn't cry. Not in front of 50 people. I sat back to our table and acted like nothing happened but you can't lie to O and Rae. They exactly knew what happened and they both walked away. I didn't stop them. I wanted them to talk to her. Maybe it's for the best.
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I finished my lunch and headed to my room. Not long after I heard door open. I turned around with tears rolling down my cheeks when I saw those glowing green eyes.
„Hey.."
„Lexa Im sorry-"
„No. It's fine Clarke. I should be the one to say sorry. You wanted to talk and I pushed you away. I didn't mean to and I know you didn't as well." She was standing there looking down not wanting to face me.
I ran to her and hugged her, tightly.
„Okay okay I get it Clarke but I think you already broke my ribs." She said out of breath as she hugged me back. I chuckled and wiped my tears away as she looked at me and smiled.
„Uhh Clarke?" She asked confused and worried as she saw my eyes wide open like I saw a ghost.
„What is that?" I immediately grabbed her face and turned her cheek to me.
„Oh that. That's umm... I fell down when I was walking back from woods. I tripped and you know."
„It was Raven and O wasn't it?" I raised my eyebrows but I felt anger. I didn't want them to beat her.
„Yeah. Don't argue with them over it okay?" She said worried. She clearly didn't want me to argue with my best friends.
„I'll talk to them about it but I'll be nice I promise."
She smiled but her smile faded away right after.
„What is it?"
„You're not ready I get it. But you could tell me. I wouldn't ran away. I only did because you told me to."
„I was scared. I didn't want you to go."
„Come on Im not scary or am I?" She said playfuly with smirk.
„Yeah you are." I teased.
„Are we good?" I asked with hope.
„Clarke. How could I ever possibly be mad at you?" She said with smile.
I smiled back and held her hand pulling her towards bed.
„Sit down Im gonna clean you that wound."
We had Firts aid kit in every room. I grabbed stuff that I needed and sat next to her.
I turned her head and started to gently clean her cheek.
„You'll have a bruise there but it will be fine." I said after I was finished.
„Well. That's how I looked like in Polis." She chuckled when she looked in the mirror. Her face was bruised on her cheek and on her jawline but it was healing already you could barely see.
„What do you mean?" I asked confused. She looked like that in Polis?
„When I was in Polis I was in that popular group you know. I got into a lot of fights and problems because of Costia and my friends. I looked tough and scary to other people but in fact, I was really friendly and nice like I am now." She said not proud of her past.
„So you were popular? For what?" I smirked teasing her.
„Basketball team. We had a team back there that I attended. All the girls were popular there and all the boys wanted them."
„What about you?" I asked smirking.
„Im gay Clarke and I had Costia anyways." I chuckled on what she said.
„Everyone knew?"
„Life of popular person. People know you better than you know yourself." She smirked and looked back at the mirror.
„Show me your hand." I put down her bandage and saw a scar where the cut was.
„I forgot about it."
„Well it's healed by now." I smiled and continued.
„Anyways. Have you heard about the 'special night' tonight that Jaha has planned?" I changed the topic.
„No what is it?"
„We don't know. He hasn't told us but Murphy says it's another bonfire."
„Yeah well that isn't very special." She was right but what else it could possibly be.
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Lexa's POV