You're Not Alone

Chapter 19

Clarke's POV

„Lexa where are you taking me?"
„Just a bit further." She was covering my eyes with her hands.
We were walking for 15 minutes now and I had no idea where we were going.
„And we're here." I opened my eyes. The next thing I saw was the most beautiful sight I've ever seen. We could see the whole city, it was getting dark and the sunset was beautiful. I kept staring at the sky with pink, yellow and orange in it.
„That's...beautiful." I gasped struggling to get words out.
„Im glad you like it." She sat down and pulled me with her.
„How did you know about this place?" I asked not taking eyes off the city.
„I come here when I need to think, you know. Something like my secret spot." She chuckled.
„I've never took anyone here before."
„Then why did you take me?"
„Because I love you." She smiled. I turned my head around to kiss her. It was long and passionate kiss.
„And I love you too." The way she pulls me closer and holds me tighter always makes me fall deeper in love with her. I still regret what I did to her with Finn and the sad feeling took over me quickly.
„Are you okay?" Of course she noticed.
„Im fine. I just can't stop thinking about the way I betrayed all of you, mostly you."
„Clarke stop. We've talked about this before."
„I know. It's just...that night when I approached you and you took a step back, my heart broke. It seemed like you were scared of me. That's when I realized how much I hurted you. The way how you looked at me and didn't say anything when Finn threatened you, it made me realize that you would do literally anything for me. You didn't even try to do anything, you just smiled and laid there, expecting punches from him. And all of that just for me. You knew that if you would do something to him, you would hurt him and it would hurt me too." The guilt that I felt was undescribable.

She hasn't said anything after that. She was quiet just looking straight into the sunset.
She was beautiful. The way the sun shined on her face, her eyes in the sunlight were even more beautiful.
„You're right Clarke. I would do anything for you. Even if that means hurting someone else because they hurted you, or getting hurt by someone because if I hurt them you would be hurt too. If I could take all the problems you have, I would bare them so you don't have to. I love you Clarke. More than anything in this fucking world and I want you to know that I will protect you at all costs." I didn't expect her saying this. My eyes were watery as she confesed her love for me. It made me feel even more guilty because of the effect it must've had on her.
„Lexa.."
„I love you Clarke. That's all that matters." I couldn't help but kiss her. Deeply, passionately. With love. The way she pulled me closer and held me tighter, I felt tears rolling down my cheeks.
„Don't cry." She chuckled and wiped my tears with her thumbs as she was holding my face in her hands.
I chuckled through sobs and smiled.
She kissed my forhead and hugged me. I burried my head in her chest and held her close.
We sat there for what felt like hours. The sun disappeared already and I was getting tired.
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I woke up in bed. I freaked out because the last thing I remember was city lights and Lexa's arms around me.
I sat up and looked outside. It was still dark. I realized that I was in Lexa's bed with her shirt on.
A silouet of a person sitting on a chair behind the table.
„Lexa?" I quietly spoke.
She turned around on her chair and looked at me.
„Did I wake you up?"
„No. Why aren't you sleeping?" I asked.
„Couldn't sleep." She turned around again and looked back at her phone.
„What are you doing?" I approached her and leaned down to see what she's doing.
„Nothing really." She shrugged.

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