You're Not Alone

Chapter 28

Clarke's POV

I heard Lexa's car pulling up in front of my house. I went downstairs and opened the door when I heard knocking.

„Hey." I smiled and hugged her.
„Hey." She wrapped her arms around me and kissed my forehead.
„Excited?" I asked.
„It's Ontari's birthday. That's the only thing Im excited for." She chuckled nervously.
„We dont have to go if you don't want to." I pulled away and held her hands in mine.
„No. We're going and we're gonna have fun." She smiled and kissed me.
„Come on." She pulled me towards her car.

When we arrived party already started. I think we were the last ones to arrive.

„Hey girl!" Ontari squealed when she saw us in the crowd of people. She obviously had alcohol in her.
She hugged Lexa and then me.
„Happy birthday." Lexa smiled when she hugged her.
„Thank you."
„A lot of people here." Lexa said nervosuly and looked around like she was looking for someone. I squeezed her arm and she looked down at me.
„Yeah. There is only one rule. Have fun." Ontari said, turned around and was ready to walk away but she stopped.
„By the way. Drinks are in the kitchen and if it goes that way, my bedroom is upstairs, door on right. Don't go there." She gave us stern looks but smiled immediately. Then she turned around again and walked away.

Lexa and I both chuckled and smiled at each other.
„So, what's the first thing on our list?" Lexa said sarcastically.
„I suggest to get a drink first." I smirked.
„On it." Lexa smiled and walked in the kitchen.

I leaned against the wall and watched people dancing while I waited for Lexa to come back. One of them was Octavia with Lincoln. I didn't want to bother them so I just smiled.

„Clarke?" I heard voice I haven't heard in years.
„Atom?" I turned around and saw tall, black haired boy.
„Long time no see." He smiled awkwardly.
„Yeah. Since 6 grade actually." I smiled.

Atom was my classmate in 6 grade and my huge crush. One of those annoying hella cute boys everyone knows. But we were just kids and now Im laughing about it. We were actually good friends. Seeing him now after so many years is weird.

„How's life?" I asked because I didn't know what to ask really.
„Pretty good. It's rough sometimes but you know. You gotta keep going somehow." He shrugged.
„Yeah. Tell me about it."
„I heard about your dad. Im sorry for what happened." He opened his arms and waited if I hug him or not. I did. I needed it.
„So what about you? Did you move on from me already?" He teased. Everyone knew I liked him back then.
„Oh shut up. Actually yes." I hit him playfully.
„Will I get a chance to meet him someday?"
„Uhm-"
„Im back. Here you go." The worst timing Lexa.
„Oh hey." She greeted Atom while she handed me a drink and wrapped her arm around my waist.
„Lexa. This is Atom. My childhood friend from school." I told her and she gave me confused look.
„Nice to meet you." He smiled.
„Yeah. Pleasure is all mine." Lexa said with smile but I could hear the jelousy in her voice.
„Atom, this is my friend Lexa." She looked at me with widened eyes and immediately let go of me.
„Not trying to be rude or anything but can I talk to Clarke in private for a second?" Lexa said with awkward smile.
„Yeah go on. I wanted to find Raven anyway. It was nice seeing you again Clarke." He smiled and walked away.

Lexa dragged me outside to the backyard.
„What was that?" She threw her hands in the air.
„Calm down Lexa! I didn't even know he was here. He just appeared behind me all of a sudden. What was I supposed to do? Tell him to fuck off?" I raised my voice.
„Exactly." She clenched her jaw.
„Unbelievable." I scoffed.
„You wanna know what's unbelievable? The fact that you called me friend back there!" I swear if her eyes were bullets I would be dead.
„I haven't seen him in years. I couldn't just be like 'Hey, Im gay and this is my girlfriend Lexa'." I said with frustration and anger because of her jelousy.
„Are you ashamed of me?" She clenched her jaw and looked straight into my soul. My heart broke when I heard those words escape her mouth.
„What? Why would you say something like that?" I saw tears forming in her eyes.
„Are you?" She asked again.
„Of course Im not. Lexa I love you with everything I have. I could never be ashamed of you." I took a step closer.
„Im sorry that I made you feel this way I just wasn't ready to tell him something like that." Her face expression softened.
„Come here." I wrapped my arms around her and gave her a tight hug.
„Let's just enjoy this party in peace with nobody bothering us." I smiled and kissed her. Her lips softly brushed against mine.