You're Not Alone

Chapter 23

Clarke's POV

„Shh it's okay. It was just an accident." My mom was stroking my hair while I was laying on my bed with my head burried in the pillow, crying my heart out.
„I pushed her away! I shouldn't have say those things." I sobbed.
„But she didn't. She still wants to talk to you and feel your presence." She smiled and I looked at her with tears in my eyes.
„She loves you Clarke. She wouldn't give up on you that easily." I hugged my mom and thanked her. She was here always when I needed her.
„Come on get some sleep. It's late and you have school tomorrow."
„Do I need to go?" I gave her puppy eyes. I really didn't feel like going to school.
„Clarke."
„Please." I begged.
„Okay. I'll call Jaha in the morning." She kissed my forhead and left my room.
I recieved texts. I hoped it would be Lexa but it wasn't.

Finn: hey princess i had wonderful night

Clarke: it was a mistake.

Finn: really? It didn't seem like it

Clarke: what's your problem finn? Leave me and Lexa alone, don't even come near me or look at me

Finn: come on princess you cant say you didnt enjoy it

Clarke: i was drunk that's the only reason why it happened

Finn: your lips were saying something else

Clarke: fuck off finn

I closed my eyes but couldn't fall asleep. No matter how hard I tried I missed those arms around me, her scent, her peaceful breaths against my neck. I missed her.
.
.
.
I slept just for 3 hours. All I was thinking about was Lexa. I thought of her when I closed my eyes and when I woke up too.
I needed to talk to her so badly.

Raven👑: where are you bitches

Lexa🦝: i felt so sick in the morning

Octavia🔥: you didn't even drink

She's not in school too?

Lexa🦝: idk i just dont feel good

Bellamy🔔: i hope you'll feel better soon

Raven👑: clarke?

Clarke📚: i have headache

Octavia🔥: what a coincidence 😏

Clarke📚: shut up

If they only knew. I put my phone down and sighed. I had no idea what to do for the whole day. My thoughts were aboutLexa again. Every movie I've watched got boring after a while, I wasn't hungry and I just didn't want to leave the house.
I heard knocks.

„Lexa? What are you doing here?" Her glowing eyes were looking into mine again. But they weren't full of love like always. It was a cold look.
„I came here to make you company."
„Come in." I stepped aside and let her in. She nodded and walked inside.
„Wanna eat something or drink?" I asked nervosuly.
„No Im good." She said and she was nervous too. I found it cute but that wasn't the right time to show it.
„Okay." I nodded and lead her to the couch.
We discussed few movies and then played one.
I wanted her to cuddle me so badly but I didn't want to ruin the moment. I was sitting on the right side and Lexa on the left.
Fuck it. I couldn't hold it inside me anymore. I moved closer and rested my head on her shoulder. She gave me confused look at first but after she wrapped her arm around me.
I felt my heartbeat getting faster. Happiness was the only thing I felt at the moment.
„Can you do me a favor?" I whispered.
„What is it?" She asked and looked down at me.
„I need to talk to Finn. But I don't wanna go there alone." I was hopefull that she would drive me.
„When do you wanna go?" She tried to hide the worry in her voice but she failed.
„After the movie." She nodded and I felt her pulling me closer.
I smiled at the action and cuddled up to her closer.