You're Not Alone

Chapter 46

Raven's POV

„PACK YOUR STUFF GUYS WE'RE ABOUT TO LEAVE!" Octavia shouted from behind the van while she was putting their bags in the trunk.
I approached them and gave Lincoln my bag so he could put it down to the rest of them. After that I entered the van to find myself a spot where O amd I could sit.

„Are you excited guys?" Clarke asked with smile while she was already sitting next to Lexa on the seats with their fingers intertwined.
„Hell yeah! Im about to blow up some fireworks!" I clenched my fists from excitement.
„I will stop you right there Reyes. You can't burn down the cabin under any and Im saying it again ANY circumstances." Lincoln said.
„Oh shut up!" I snapped back at him but Lexa stopped us both.
„By the way I invited Luna." She smiled.

My whole body froze hearing that name. After our talk in the livingroom while we were decorating it for Lexa's birthday we never actually met up. I was too scared of it and I think she was too. Maybe this is the right time to sort things out and talk about it in private.

„Are you okay Rae?" Clarke whispered to me as she took my hand in hers slowly.
„Yeah Im good." I shaked my head and closed my eyes for a second like if I wnated to get Luna out of my mind as soon as possible.
„Talk to me if anything happens." She smiled at me and I smiled back.

As I sat down next to Octavia Luna walked in.
„Hey yall." She smiled awkwardly.
„Hey come here we saved a seat for you." Lexa pointed at the back of the van behind them.
„Thanks." She smiled at her and then looked at me. Her smile faded away and her eyes were filled with guilt.
She look at the ground and walked past me like she didn't even want to face me at all.

She sat down silently and put her bag on seat next to her. She didn't even have time to find herself a comfortable position because Lexa already turned around in attempt to talk to her.

I carefully looked at her so she wouldn't notice but of course she did. As soon as she did I turned my head away in different direction.

„You okay?" Octavia asked.
„Yeah I just uhm...ate too much this morning and I don't feel well you know. It's not a big deal." I gave her small smile but she didn't believe me. Even tho she didn't ask more questions she nodded and spoke up instead.

„If we are complete we can go." Everyone cheered in excitement and big smiles on their faces.
„Monty, if you will." Octavia gave him a sign to leave the parking lot.
„It will be my pleasure." He smiled back at her and started the van.

For the rest of the road I was secretly trying to look at Luna and she noticed me a couple of times. But she just smiled. So i smiled back. I really started to get a good feeling about this even as much as it wasn't at first sight.

„Why do you guys look at each other all the time?" Octavia whispered to me because of course she noticed.
„It's..nothing." I blushed.
„Okay. Tell me about that "nothing"." She raised her eyebrows as she tilted her head side ways.
„Not now. Everyone will hear us." I looked around like if somebody was watching us.
„Say no more. Monty! I need to pee so fucking bad. Can you stop at the next gas station?"
„O stop!" I tried to stop her as she was talking.
„Sure." Monty answered and looked for another gas station on his GPS.

„Now you can tell me everything." She smirked and satisfied with herself she rested her head against the seat and closed her eyes with proud look on her face.
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„Here we are guys. But be quick we have a long road ahead of us." Lincoln said as we stopped the car on the parking lot.
Clexa and I left the van. When I was standing outside Octavia grabbed my arm out if nowhere and basically dragged me to the rest room.

„Now. Spit it out." She crossed her arms.
„Well..uhh you remember that party we went to with clexa?"
„We've been to a lot of parties."
„I think it was Ontari's birthday."
„Yeah, I do." She nodded.

„Okay and so...I got drunk and Luna as well. And it kind of took a turn and we kissed."
„You did what?"
„And then we walked in on Clexa." I mummbled with my cheeks red already.
„WHAT?! You walked in on-" She stopped in the middle of the sentence and put her fingers on thw bridge of her nose.

„Let me get this staright. I mean I can't tho. You and Luna were having a whole make out session." I nodded quietly.
„And then you saw clexa doing it."
„No they weren't. I mean- is it even important?" I asked.

„Okay so..what about Luna?"
„What about her?" I said sadly.
„Does she remember?" O raised her eyebrow and I nodded.
„Have you guys talked about it?"
„Yeah kind of. When we were decorating Clarke's livingroom for Lexa. She told me she noticed me looking at her during Lexa's basketball matches." I smiled at that thought.

„So the point of this whole conversation is?" Octavia had hopefull look in her eyes as she wanted me to answer.
„If she actually likes me back."
„Finally. Well?"
„We wanted to meet up and talk it out but we never got a chance. I mean we did but we were both too scared to face each other." I held my arm nervously.
„Now you have a chance." Octavia smiled at me and came closer.
„Yeah I know."

„We should probably get back to the others."
„Yeah. Right." I said nervosuly and walked behind her while looking at the ground.
„And just so you know." Octavia stopped me before we left the rest room.

She grabbed my face in her hands and gave me a kiss on lips.
„It's okay that you like girls." She smirked and turned around.
I stood there frozen thinking about what just happened.
„You coming?" She laughed while she was going out of the rest rooms.

I smiled and quickly caught up with Octavia amd we returned to the van.