She's lost In A Sea Of Poetry

Let me go back to dreaming

The dishes are done, let me go back to dreaming.

Responsibilities bog me down. They will the rest of my life. I rather be day dreaming, lying in bed,off in my own world, or,reading an article,or a book. I rather be listening to a podcast or a YouTube video, learning about a subject of my own interest, tucked away in my own nook. I rather be writing, watching a movie, a tv show, meditating, or going for a walk. I rather be alone,or doing something creative, or learning about a subject I'm interested in. School subjects aren't usually my cup of tea, and mundane tasks that need to be done, sometimes pop my bubble. I like my alone time,to think, and dream, and anaylze, and learn and reflect and relax and just be. Sometimes life bores me, or weighs me down,so I escape into my own world. So if ever you find you haven't seen me or heard from me, I'm probably off day dreaming or reflecting and analyzing and thinking. If ever you wounder what I am up to, this is probably it. For it is who I am, I go off into my own world for days, and I quite like it there, for there's no one to bug me, no one to poke at me, and nothing, no responsibility calling me that I have to do. I go off into my own world sometimes..
So sometimes you have to come looking for me
And you have to understand
That my alone time, is for my benefit.
And you must realize how lucky you are,if I try to let you into this own little special world of mine, for most of the time I'm the only one really in it. So if you step into it with me, understand how special you are to me. For most people wouldn't understand my interest, or the way I think and my prespectives,so sometimes I keep them to myself, and when I find someone accepting, I rejoice, for it is so nice. And please don't be surprised if you ask my opinion and receive blunt honesty, or a different prespective than you thought of. I will not sugar coat,I will not lie, and you may hear something unique, something you didn't expect. I am not a one size fits all,I am not for everyone. I am different. I am not the exact same version of myself every single day. Some days I'm silly, some days I'm sensitive, some days I'm tired and exhausted, some days I'm energetic and bubbly, some days I want to be alone, some days I want to hangout with my friends and family, some days I go with the flow, other days anxiety overwhelms me. Most days, I'm all of that and more. Sometimes you'll think I'm up to nothing, when inside,I have so much going on. Some days you'll think you know me, and other days you might be surprised what you find. I'm a puzzle to solve, a tree that is always growing. Some days to you'll recognize me, and other days you won't. You'll think you know me, but there's always more to learn. I am always learning, more about myself, other people, relationships, subjects,life, and facts. I pick up so many things,no one has any clue, not even I really do I'm always questioning everything, myself,who I am,what I want, what others think of me,what I think of me, how I feel,my beliefs,what I want to do with my life, what I should do, who others are, how they see me, feel about me, how I feel about them, where this decision I make will lead me, where my past led me, where my future will go, what this word means, and this word, and this word, and this song, and this and that. My mind is constantly turning, constantly questioning, constantly woundering, constantly thinking. There are some days I can't get out of my head and some days where I need to. Where thoughts and worries become too much. Where things bog me down. Sometimes I need my alone in to think, and other times I need someone,or myself, to pull me out of my head, out my mind and thoughts because sometimes they all become too much.