There are things in life you consider as truth and hearing Nel confessed that she's in love with me was a validation that what we feel for each other was more than just friendship.
Kahit ilang dekada na ang lumipas, ang constant sa aming dalawa ay ang pagmamahal na hindi basta mawawala ng ganun na lang.
"Say something." Sabi ni Nel ng hindi ako agad nakapagsalita.
"I know." Two words.
But those two words meant everything to me.
"I feel the same way too." Dinugtong ko na dahil I saw confusion in her eyes.
After I said it, ang laki-laki ng ngiti niya.
"Yes!" Tinaas niya ang mga kamay na akala mo nanalo siya sa lotto.
"But you know what this means right?"
"I know. But to hear you say it, nawala ang takot na nararamdaman ko."
"Bakit ka naman natatakot?"
"Hindi ko kasi alam kung ano ang magiging reaction mo kung aaminin ko sa'yo na after all these years, kahit anong gawin kong pangungumbinse sa sarili ko na we're just friends or that we can only be friends, alam ko na niloloko ko lang ang sarili ko. Lise," Tinitigan niya akong maigi sa camera, "it's always been you."
Kung pwede ko lang ipasok ang katawan ko sa screen, ginawa ko na.
Gusto ko siyang yakapin at halikan.
I want Nel to feel all the happiness na nararamdaman ko but the only thing I have are words dahil milya-milya ang layo namin sa isa't-isa.
The thought threatened to dampen my happiness but I pushed it at the back of my mind.
This moment is a time for celebration.
"Hindi din ako makapaniwala. I thought when I came to your house and we said our goodbyes, that was it. Hindi na kita makikita and I will move on with my life. But then, I still couldn't stop thinking about you. You were always on my mind kahit pa pilit kong sinasabi sa sarili ko na kalimutan na kita. Pero dama ko dito," Tinuro ko ang kaliwang dibdib, "na the doors never really closed. A part of my heart was still hoping that things never ended."
"Is that why you sent the friend request?"
"It was an act of desperation" Natawa ako.
"My final attempt at proving if you've really move on from me."
"I have a confession to make."
Bigla akong kinabahan.
"Don't worry. But don't get mad at me either."
"What are you going to tell me?"
"I pressed the button with eyes closed."
"What?"
"When I saw the notification, I was so confused. Kasi nag-usap na tayo and I really thought na it was over between us. When you found me on Facebook tapos nagsend ka pa ng friend request, hindi ko alam kung ano ang gagawin ko."
"Is that why ang tagal bago ka nagrespond?"
"Oo. I even thought of blocking you."
"Di nga?"
"I was really determined to close that chapter of my life."
"Ganun ba ako kasama para i-block mo?"
"It's not that you're masama."
"What's the reason then?"
"I just don't trust myself that I will be able to resist you."
Saglit kaming natahimik pero ako ang naunang nagsalita.
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