Leather & Lace: A Sons of Anarchy Fanfic

Chapter 61

Jax and Tinsley showered together while the babies slept. They washed every inch of each other which did nothing to calm down either right their sex drives.

They both climbed out of that shower and dressed in comfy clothes. The two of them laid in bed, in each other's arms. It didn't take long for Tinsley to fall asleep.

Jax laid one bed just waiting the woman he loved sleep. He couldn't believe he had gotten so lucky to find someone like her. After all the things he had did in his life, he often wondered how he could possibly deserve someone so selfless, caring, and loving.

He let his mind wander to his past. He had done some terrible things in his 30 years. He had seen things that no one should ever have to see. He thought about the ones he loved that he admin his life and he thought about the ones he had lost. He mind wandered Tara. He didn't want to think about her but he couldn't help it. He didn't want her in that way. Hell, he couldn't imagine him wanting anyone other than Tinsley.

But, his throughts still stayed on Tara. He thought about how they were back in high school. Her leaving had completely and utterly broken him. For years after that, he was a shell of a man. He slept with woman just to feel something. For awhile, he held out hope that Tara would come home but after awhile he realized that was just a pipe dream. He knew that the two of them were really over. He thought he had loved her. He thought that he could never love anyone else. Or so he thought. Since he had met Tinsley, he had found the real meaning of love and he knew that if she ever left him, he wouldn't survive it. He knew that he would do anything and everything humanly possible to keep her from ever leaving him.

He wondered what Tara's game plan was. She sounded like she was stressed but then again she always blew things out of proportion. Looking at the clock, he saw it was 1:23 am. He wasn't about to call her tonight. If she needed him, and it involved Ava, until he found out the results of the test he would do what he had to do. He wouldn't be able to live with himself if Ava turned out to be his and he let something happen to her thag he could have prevented.

Jagger began to cry so Jax pulled himself from his thoughts and went to check on him. Little guy was probably getting hungry. Jax took him downstairs and warmed up a bottle for him. He sat feeding Jagger, just staring at him. He really couldn't believe he had 4 kids now. He could t believe that just 8 months ago, he had just Abel and he wasn't even born yet.

When Jagger has finished his bottle, Jax laid him back down and changed his diaper. Lizzie and Gracie began to cry. Before he could get them calmed down, Tinsley was up. She picked up Lizzie and Jax grabbed Gracie. The 4 of them walked back up to the the third floor bedroom. Tinsley sat down on the bed and removed her shirt. Lizzie latched right on. Jax positioned Gracie so that she could latch onto the other boob. Tinsley just watched Tinsley as shesat in the middle of the bed feeding his two baby girls. He didn't know that he had ever seen a more beautiful sight.

"What did Tara want earlier?" Asked Tinsley out of the blue.

"For me to meet her at Sunny Side." Said Jax.

"For what?" Asked Tinsley.

"I don't know. Said she couldn't tell me over the phone." Said Jax.

"Oh" said Tinsley.

"She sounded like it was important" said Jax.

"What could it be?" Asked Tinsley.

"I don't know. Guess I won't know unless I meet her" said Jax.

"I'd rather you didn't but I get what you're saying" said Tinsley.

"If it would make you feel better, I'll offer to meet her but it would have to be here" said Jax.

"I trust you Jax. I really do. If you need to meet her at the diner, go ahead. I know enough people there to know if she gets out of line" said Tinsley.

"You don't have to worry about me getting out of life. You are all the woman I will ever need" said Jax.

"Send her a text since it's 3am and tell her you will meet her at the diner at 7." Said Tinsley.

"Are you sure? She could just be trying to stir some shit" said Jax.

"I'm sure. If there is anything wrong, you will beat yourself up for not trying to help especially if it involves Ava. She's an innocent child in all this" said Tinsley.

"I was thinking the same thing earlier. If she turns out to be mine, and I let anything happen to her, it would kill me" said Jax.

"I know it would. That's why I'm telling you to meet her and see what's so important" said Tinsley.

"Will you be ok by yourself?" Asked Jax.

"I'll manage. If things get too hectic, I'll call your mom" said Tinsley.

These was a brief silence. Jax looked to be trying to figure out what to do.

"I don't deserve you. You know that right?" said Jax.

"It's me who doesn't deserve you Teller." Said Tinsley.

"Let's agree to disagree on this. I love you so much" said Jax.

"And I love you too" said Tinsley.

When Gracie and Lizzie were done eating, Jax and Tinsley walked them back to their rooms, changed them, and laid them back down for the night.

When they got back upstairs, Tinsley looked at the clock. It was nearly 4:30 a.m. Tinsley laid down and passed out before she even knew what had hit her.

Jax saw she was sleep so he got up and sent Tara the message Tinsley had told him to. He got a response within minutes

Tara: You couldn't talk earlier but you can message me at 4:30 in the morning?

Jax: I told you I would meet you and that's all. Be there at 7 if you really want to talk

Tara: whatever. I'll be there

Jax didn't even respond to her. He went down stair and rinsed out the used bottles and straighten up some things.

By 6:30. Jagger was up and ready to eat again. Tinsley had gotten up with him and was sitting on the couch nursing him while using the electronic pump to pump her other breast. The sight of her running around topless was something that he could definitely get used to.

Knowing he had to go, he kissed her and rode his bike towards Sunny Side Diner.