Leather & Lace: A Sons of Anarchy Fanfic

Chapter 78

After what seemed like forever, Clay came walking -very slowly out of the back ready to leave. He had instructions from the doctor to follow up with his primary care physician once he was back in the states to make sure the bones were healing normally.

"Lets get the fuck out of here" said Clay.

They guys all got up from their seats, stretched and started to walk behind Clay as they left the hospital. One of the guys from SAMBEL had driven a car over in order to get Clay back to the club house.

Once they had made it back to the SAMBEL club house, the guys went and packed their belongings. They were ready to get out of here. Jax walked into the room clay had been using and packed his things for him. Once everything was packed, he grabbed Clay's bag and walked back over to the club house where he had left Clay.

Walking over to the couch that Clay was sitting on, Jax sat down beside him, blowing out a huge breath when he did so.

"You look tired son" said Clay.

"I'm just ready to get out of here. This trip hasn't been a walk in the part by anyone's definition" said Jax.

"You got that right." Said Clay.

"I'm just glad your okay man." Said Jax.

"Me too son." Said Clay.

"So the guys caught O'Neil and McGee is dead. We weren't able to get out hands on Jimmy" said Jax.

"Who killed McGee?" Asked Clay

"I did" said Jax.

Jax dug the patches out of his pocket and handed them to Clay. Clay room the patches and held them in he hands. He just kept staring at them.

"He was First 9. Why would be betray the patch like that?" Asked Clay.

"Greed" said Jax.

"I guess your right. But it doesn't make me feel any better. I just can't believe that he would do this." Said Clay.

"There isn't much that surprises me anymore" said Jax.

"I get that too" said Clay.

"I think Maureen surprised me the most though" said Jax.

"Why do you say that?" Asked Clay.

"When I finally got her to convince her brother that it was in his best interest to tell us where Jimmy was keeping you, she told me some things" said Jax.

"What kinda of things" said Clay.

"Well for starters, did you know JT was having an affair with her?" Asked Jax.

"I knew they had hooked up. You know the whole 'what happens on a run stays on a run thing' but nothing other than that" said Clay.

"Well it was a whole lot more. He was in love with her." Said Jax.

"Wow son, I'm sorry to hear that" said Clay.

"That's not the worth damn part. Not only were they in love, she had a child with him" said Jax.

"What the fuck" whispered Clay.

"Yeah" said Jax.

"I'm sorry son, I know you have always held JT to a higher standard. I'm sorry that was ruined for you" said Clay.

"All my life I wanted to be just like him. Even after he died, I've always tried to base all by decisions off of how he would have done it. After this, I'm done listening to dead men. He will NEVER be a part of my thought process again" said Jax.

Clay sat silently for a minute. He acted as if he wanted to get something off his chest.

"Jax, there is something you need to know about your mom and I." Said Clay.

"What? That you killed JT?" Asked Jax.

"Where would that have even come from? Why would I have killed him?" Asked Clay.

"According to Maureen, JT broke her some bullshit love letters and told her in them that if he was to die unexpectedly, it would be because you did it. She said that JT was in the process of brokering a deal to get the club out of guns. She went on to say that JT wrote in the letter that you weren't happy about it. She thinks you killed JT because that's what he told her" said Jax.

"Jax, look at me. Yes, I'm a son of a botch on a good day and you know I can be ruthless when I need to. Believe me when I say that I didn't kill your father." Said Clay.

"Well why would he think you would?" Asked Jax.

"Gun were and still are big business for us. I knew JT was planning on getting us out of guns. Yes, j was pissed but I didn't kill him" said Clay.

"Out of everyone, why would he say that you would be the one to kill him?" Asked Jax.

"I was just about to tell you. Your mom and I were together before JT died. We were having an affair. I fell head over heals for the crazy woman." Said Clay.

Jax sat there and tried to process what Clay has just told him. Clay and Gemma had been sleeping tighter before JT died. Jax knee he couldn't hold it against her because JT was doing the same thing but he was pissed at Clay. JT was supposed to be a brother. Brothers didn't do that to one another... or so he thought. Opie had slept with Tara after all.

"Say something Jax." Said Clay.

"What do you want to say? Tell you I'm pissed the fuck off that you were sleeping with my mom behind my fathers back? How can I really be pissed out at either of you when JT was fucking Maureen the whole time. At least you didn't knock my mother up" said Jax.

"I know you are pissed. I know you said that JT wasn't going to be a part of your life anymore but Jax, he is your father. None of us were saints. I knew sleeping with your mom was wrong but I couldn't quit. I fell in love with her before I even knew it was happening. JT was spending all his time in Belfast. Your mother was lonely." Said Clay

"Like I said, I can't be mad at any of you. Not over the god damn affair anyway. But I am pissed that while my brother was dying, JT was ducking his Irish whore. You know, I remember him coming home after that. I remember that son of a bitch crying over my brother. I remember him trying to comfort me. I remember him apologizing to my mom for not being here. I remember he gave her some bullshit excuse that he couldn't get a flight back sooner. But you know what I do fucking remember? I remember being happy that he was there. I remember how he hugged me tight and wiped away my tears and told me how much he loved me. I remember feeling like he was best man on this god damn earth." Said Jax as a tear slid down his cheek.

"He did love you son. I'll give him that. He was many things and most of them were shady at best , but he did love you and Thomas." Said Jax.

"I'll never treat any of my kids like he did us. I'll never put anything above them." Said Jax.

"I know that. You're like your mom in that aspect. You are a good father Jax. Don't compare yourself to John." Said Clay.

The two of them fell into silence thinking about all that was said. Jax thought its was kind of funny that all these years he had kept JT on a pedestal like he was some sort of god when all along, Clay was the better man. He found it funny that all these years he looked at Clay as the enemy when in fact he was half way decent because he had helped Gemma raise Jax.

Hugging out a breath, Jax stood up and grabbed his and Clay's bag.

"Let's go home. I'm ready to leave this place and get back to my life" said Jax.

"Sounds good to me" said Clay.

Jax helped Clay to his feet and helped him walk out to the lot of the club house. Jax walked Clay over to the van that was waiting to carry them back to the airport. After helping clay up into the passenger seat, he helped buckle him in. When that was done, he went to say his goodbyes to the SAMBEL guys. After hugging them all, SAMCRO loaded the van and headed for the airport. We're finally getting out of the shit whole of a country thought Jax as they boarded their plane for home.