Leather & Lace: A Sons of Anarchy Fanfic

Chapter 105

6 Months Later:

Tinsley sat on the deck of her brother Liam's Kitty Hawk home that over looked the Atlantic oven. The north wind coming in off the water was enough to chill a one to then one but since coming back to North Carolina, Tinsley had been numb to any kid of pain. She loved her life day to day for her kids. Luckily, he brother had been willing to take her in when she came knocking on his door. He had a child of his own and the little 3 bedroom cottage he rented over looking the ocean was packed to capacity with Tinsley staying there.

After leaving, she had gotten numerous called form Gemma apologizing for Jax's behavior and begging her to come back. But even those had stopped about 3 months ago. Evidently Gemma finally got the hint that Tinsley wasn't coming back.m to charming. Even though Gemma had called numerous time and had even threatened to call the law on a few occasions, surprisingly , when Tinsley Jax never did anything to stop her or ask her to come back. He could have reported Abel as kidnapped and he could have reported the SUV as stoledn but he never did . And what did that say about the love he supposedly had for her? It just told her that he didn't care enough to fight for them. Which is why she was wondering why he was calling for the 34th time today. In fact, him calling her had only stared in the back couple of weeks. She had yet to answer the phone. Oh, she had listened to the endless amount of voicemails he left in a days time. All the messages would range from sorrow to anger to professing his love and telling how sorry he was. She almost felt bad for him. She knew that regardless of how he felt about her, he loved his kids and it must have been hell being without them. As he phone continued to vibrate, she finally hit the silence on it. She knew she needed TJ talk to him but her heart, thr stupid thing that it was, still love him. She knew if she ever talked to him it would only take one 'I'm sorry' before she was packing up and driving back to Charming.

Tinsley brother stepped out onto the deck just as the phone screen finally went dark. But within seconds, it's started all over again.

"You should really call him" said Liam as he took a seat beside her.

"I have nothing to say to him" said Tinsley.

"Obviously he has something to say to you" said Liam

"Well, he can keep leaving it on the voicemail. Because believe me, said a fucking plenty before I left" said Tinsley.

"Tins, I saw the two of you at your wedding. The two of you love each other more that anything." Said Liam.

"Yeah, well, when that guy you loved with all your heart basically calls you a whore and accuses you of cheating, I wouldn't say he loved you a whole lot to begin with." Said Tinsley.

"Your lying time yourself and you know it. You wont answer this phone because you know that the first time he asks you to come back, you will break the damn land speed record getting back to him" said Liam.

"It doesn't matter what I want. I would love nothing more than to go back to Charming and live the rest of my life with him. Because you're right, I love his stupid, moronic, stubborn ass. More than I love myself most of the time. And what does that say about me?" Said Tinsley.

"It says you found your soul mate. Tinsley, I know you think your hiding it, but René and I both have heard you crying yourself to sleep every single night since you got here. We've heard you wake up from nightmares screaming his name. We've seen the look of anguish on your face every time Abel asks about him or Gemma. I love you sis, and I love having you here, but you know just as well as I do, you belong in Charming and so does that baby boy your carrying" said Liam.

"I know. But I can't go back. I won't go back. I refuse to be treated like that" said Tinsley.

"Other than his one time, has he treated you bad?" Said Liam.

"We've had our fights. Most of the time it was me accusing him of cheating. He had a reputation that would have made Deuce Bigalow jealous ya know. And I don't have to tell you just how insecure I am" said Tinsley.

"I know. But when i saw you with him, you were vibrant. You love yourself. You loved the little things get in life. Since you have been here, you haven't found one thing that brings a true smile to your face. Even the kids don't get a genuine smile out of you." Said Liam.

"I know. And I don't know how to fix it" said Tinsley.

"I do. Go home. Go home to your husband. Go make things right" said Liam.

"Geez, it almost like your trying to get rid of me" said Tinsley.

"Never. You know you are welcome here as long as you want. I just want my sister back. Not this smell of a person. Even if it means your all the way on the other side of the continent, I would rather never see you than see you even say walking around like you have for thr back six months. I love you Tins, but it's time to put those big girl panties on and face the music. You need Jax in order to be happy. We all see that so why can't you?" Said Liam.

"I do see it. I just risk the heartache. I barely survived it the first time. A second would absolutely kill me" said Tinsley.

"I wouldn't call existing surviving it. And that's what your doing Tinsley. Your existing. Because regifted you wanna face it or not, to need him." Said Liam.

Just then, Tinsley heard voices inside the house. There was someone there. And she didn't have to wait long to find out who it was because before she knew it, she heard Abel's sweet angelic voice yelling "Da-Da" with so much love and happiness. Tinsley looked at her brother and and it all clicked.

"You called him did you?" Asked Tinsley.

"I did. Tinsley, he loves you. He misses you. He need you just as much as you love, miss and need him. Now go in there, get your man back, make things right. I'm taking René and Sadie our to dinner. When I get back, I don't expect you to be here" said Liam as he walked through the sliding doors.

Tinsley sat on the deck trying to gather her courage to go in and face the only man she had ever loved. The man she had ran away from.

Here goes nothing. Might as well get this heartbreak over with thought Tinsley as she slid open the sliding glass door and came face to face with the man who had haunted her dreams for the past six months. The man who she loved more than anything else on this earth. The man who with one 'I'm sorry' could have her packing up everything she had and dragging ass back to Charming, California.

"Hey Tinsley" said Jax.