Leather & Lace: A Sons of Anarchy Fanfic

Chapter 106

Damn she looks amazing. And that baby bump. I could stop her right her and fuck her senseless for all the time we're lost. But then again, that time lost is because of me and my stupid mouth thought Jax when he laid eyes on Tinsley for thr first time I six months. She hadn't even spoken a word yet but he could hear her husky voice in his mind. That voice if the only thing that had gotten him though the past 6 months.

"Where are your crutches" said Tinsley.

And ooookkkk, that wasn't what he expected her to ask.

"Doc cleared new about 6 weeks ago. I have to be extra careful and I walk with a limp, but other than that I'm good for awhile." Said Jax.

"But he said multiple surgeries" said Tinsley.

"Guess he repaired it better than he thought. He said I should be back to normal within a few months as long as I keep up with my physical theropy and as long as I don't re-injure it." Said Jax

"That good news" said Tinsley.

The two of them just stood there in the middle of Liam's living room, watching each other, scared to move. It was almost like if either of them moved, it would all be a dream. Jax knew that's how he felt. Before he could open his mouth to say another word, Tinsley asked the one question he had been preparing for since broadening his flight to North Carolina.

"Why are you here Jax?"

"The short answer? To apologize since you wouldn't take any of my calls. Plus, I missed you and the kids like crazy" said Jax.

"Jax..." started Tinsley.

"No, let me get this out. I'm sorry. I'm so incredibly sorry that I accused you of cheating on me. I'm so sorry I was so rude. I'm so sorry I ever let you walk out of my life. But most of all, I'm sorry for being someone that you have come to hate" said Jax.

"Jax, I don't hate you" said Tinsley.

"After the way I treated you, how can you not?" Asked Jax.

"Because as much as I hate to admit it, I still love you. I will always love you." Said Tinsley as the tears started to stream down her face.

"Baby don't cry" said Jax as he took the first steps toward Tinsley and pulled her into his arms.

Once she was we posed in Jax's arms, the one place she wanted more than anything to be, she couldn't help herself when the anger that had built up over the past six months came bubbling up. Tinsley immediately started hitting him and she didn't stop until she had no more fight left in her. She hit him for all the hurtful things he had said to her. She hit him for all the tears she had cried over losing him. But most of all, she cried over the lost time. They would never get the six months apart back. When she thought of all the things the kids had learned in six months, she cried even more. Not for herself because she had been witness to them all. She cried for Jax. He hadn't seen Jagger, Lizzie, or Gracie take their first steps. He hadn't heard Abel's learn all his new words. He hadn't felt the first kicks of the baby boy she was carrying.

"Y-you missed s-so m-much Jax." Said Tinsley between sobs.

"And that's my fault. Not yours. You did what you thought was right. I don't blame you for leaving me because if the tables had been turned, I would have done the same" said Jax.

"But you didn't try to s-stop me" said Tinsley.

"What right did I have? In the condition I was in at the time, I couldn't have taken care of the kids. I could t have chased you if I wanted. The only thing I could have done was called you and begged you to come back. But I was to stupid to do that. I was so stupid that I let the only woman I've ever loved take my kids and move all the way across the country." Said Jax.

"Jax..." started Tinsley again.

"I'm not done. I know I'm the big bad biker who isn't supposed to have all these feelings but I can't help it. In fact if half the guys from the club knew I was here right now, they would never let me hear the end of it. And that's ok. Because you mean so much to me Tinsley Marie Teller. You and the kids mean the absolute world to me. If I had to chose between you and the club, I'd chose you ever single time. The club might be my destiny but without you, there isn't any life worth living. And without a life worth living, who needs any form of destiny. I'm prepared to show you every single day for the rest of our lives that I love you and I can't lose you. If it means I have to beg and plead, then I'll get down on my knees right now and do just that. I just hope it isn't too late for us. Please say you will give me another chance. Please say you will come home with me. I haven't slept one night in our home without you. I've spent every sleepless night at the apartment at the club house with wasn't much better because every time I closed my eyes, I pictured all the things you and I did there. I pictured all the good times, the bad times, and everything in between. Just please, I'm begging you, come home" said Jax.

"Can I talk now?" Asked Tinsley.

"Yes" said Jax.

"You know you have my whole heart. In fact, you have had it from the very first time I laid eyes on you at Sunny Side Diner. I remember it like it was yesterday. When you climbed off that bike, I thought you were the sexiest man I had ever seen. I actually remember thinking that the Michelangelo had to bee based off of you. You didn't speak to me that day. As far as I know, you didn't even acknowledge that I even existed. For weeks you can in for breakfast with different guys from the club and all I could think was 'Damn, how does a girl get to know him'. Then, one day, 18 months ago, I had the luck of stepping outside to smoke a cigarette. And glory to god, you needed a light. That day, 18 months ago, my life was forever changed by a leather wearing bad boy who has a heart of gold. I guess what I'm trying to say Jax is that you don't have to beg. You don't have to plead. Because no matter how hard I try, I could never get over you. You have my whole heart and there is no way anyone could ever take your place. You ruined me for all mean Jackson Teller." said Tinsley.

"See, your wrong on two things there. First off, That first day I saw you at Sunny Side, I knew I had to have you. I knew I had to make you my wife. I was just to chicken to act the on it because I thought you wouldn't want to be with a guy like me. So I waited and I watched you flirt with this table and that one to get the good tips until I thought I was going to go completely fucking nuts. Opie is the only one who knew back then just how much I liked you. And boy did he give me all grades of shit because of it. In fact, the day I asked you for a lighter, I had a brand new on in my pocket. Opie has bet me when she pulled on the lot and I seen you that I wouldn't go talk to you. Of course, I proved him wrong and got free breakfast out of the whole thing." Said Jax.

Taking a step back, Tinsley looked up into Jax's eyes and saw he was telling the truth. It was written all over his face. And that's all she needed to see. Because she Jax looked at her like her was right now, all open book and all, Tinsley knew there was no way she was staying here. She knew she was going home with Jax.

For thr first time in six months, she felt happy. So happy in fact that she grabbed Jax's belt loops and pulled him to her. She ran her hands up to his cheeks and brought his lips down to hers and planted the sweetest of kisses there.

"I love you Tinsley."

"I love you so much more Jax." Said Tinsley.

"It isn't possible" said Jax.

"Want me to prove it?" Asked Tinsley.

"More than I want my next breath, but, I didn't come here just to make love to you" said Jax.

"I know. But right now, that's what I want. That's what I need." Said Tinsley.

Before Jax even knew what was happening, Tinsley walked out of his embrace, picked Abel up and placed him in the pack and play and then grabbed Jax's hand and led him to her room.

Oh boy, this going to be fun thought Jax.