FREE FALLING ━━ p. dameron ✓

thirty two

Poe drops me off at my room with a hug and a kiss. We both decided to skip dinner. There's no point, seeing as everyone's working anyways.

I get dressed into leggings and a tank top. I slid under the covers of my cot, trying to get warm. Surprisingly, it gets freezing on Onderon.

I fall until an uneasy sleep. My dreams are plagued with the images of my loved ones dying. There's Mom, Chewie, Poe, Lula, Finn. They're all lying on the floor, a lightsaber wound-

I sit up covered in cold sweat. I rub a hand over my face, lying back down.

Almost instantaneously, I feel a weird pull at my core. Without even opening my eyes, I know who it is.

"You'll tell me where you are." Ben says. "Tell me where the Resistance is hiding."

I look at Ben before turning and looking at my alarm clock.

"Ben, it's four in the god damn morning."

"Ok and?" Ben flips over so we're both facing each other. "I need to know where you are. Tell me."

I'm suddenly hit with a flashback. This is like when Ben and I used to share a room.

Our beds were across from each other's and he'd keep me up.

"Your stupid Jedi mind tricks don't work on me. Let me sleep." I say.

"I still don't understand why the Force wants us to be connected. You have no Force powers whatsoever." Ben says thoughtfully.

I flinch. The thought still hurts. I've been wondering for years how Ben got lucky enough to have the Force and is using it to work for the First Order.

"I don't know Ben, and I don't care. These are my least favorite moments." I sigh tiredly.

At that, Ben flinches.

"You know you're lying. You miss me. As does Mother. As did Father."

"Do not talk about him." I spit out. "You have no right to talk about Dad."

"I have every right." Ben says mildly.

"No you don't you bastard! You killed him! You killed Dad! You're a murder, a monster!" I scream. Tears begin to roll down my face.

Ben gives me one long look and cuts off the connection, leaving me shaking and crying on my bed.

Surprisingly, no one comes to my room. I wipe my eyes, sniffling. I stand up and pull on a sweater.

Pushing open the stall door, I glance around. It's empty in the barn. I quickly run outside. It's freezing out here.

In the distance, I see Poe and I's X-wings. The black and orange paint glistens under the double moonlight.

I walk over to mine before I hear a familiar beep at my feet. I glance down.

"BB-12?" I ask. "Go back to my room. It's dangerous out here."

BB-12 beeps angrily.

I roll my eyes. "I have a blaster. I'm fine. Besides, I'm just going to my X-wing. Not even going near the forest."

BB-12 beeps and whirs again.

I sigh. "Alright, come on." I say, jerking my head.

We both head over to my X-wing.

"BB-12. I don't know what to do. My brother keeps contacting me." I sigh, sitting on the grass beside my ship.

How so?

"I don't know how to explain it. It's like someone is pulling at my stomach, slowly tightening the rope around it. Ben first did it when my mother was unconscious. He said he wasn't doing this, that it was Snoke. Then, right before we got to Onderon, he connected with me again. But he said that Snoke was dead. So who's doing it now? And a second ago, he tried to use his weird Jedi voodoo through the connection." I hang my head in my hands. "I just...I don't know what to do BB."

BB-12 rolls up and nudges my leg affectionately. I reach down and pat his head.

"Oh BB. If only things were easier. Then I wouldn't be fighting this war and Poe and I could just go somewhere quiet."

The droid beeps sadly. We sit for a couple more minutes, enjoying the moons and stars.

I finally stand up and brush bits of grass off my leggings. As I turn to walk back to the barn, I feel like I've been sucked into a tube.

My surroundings go black for a second before I can see where I am. I'm in a forest, and there's snow flying around. It stings my face and hands.

I swing my head around, looking for BB-12.

"BB!" I yell. The snow falls harder, and the wind picks up. In the distance, something red flashes.

I gasp and stumble backwards. I trip and fall, landing in the snow.

Ben towers over me. He's wrapped in a black cloak but his mask is off. His black hair blows wildly in the wind, collecting flakes of white snow. The final touch to his look is the cherry red saber crackling in his hands.

I scramble backwards, my hands sliding over the icy ground.

"Ben-" I say nervously.

Ben raises his saber. "This ends now."

The saber swings downwards and pierces my stomach. I let out a short scream, expecting blood or pain.

Instead, I feel an odd sharp stinging. Ben raises his eyebrows.

"What?" He asks breathlessly.

"This is a Force projection." I whisper, closing my eyes. "Oh thank the Forces."

I stand up as Ben lowers his saber. There's anger flashing through his eyes. And yet, it's mixed with something else.

"I'll see you later punk bitch." I snarl. The connection is cut off again for the second time that night.

My surroundings go black before I find myself kneeling on the Onderon grass. BB-12 rolls around in front of me, whistling and whirring nervously.

I sit back in my heels and let out a sigh of relief.

"Oh BB-12, I've never been more happy to see you." I say, hugging the droid. After a second, I pull back.

Standing up I say- "Let's go back to my stall. It's been a long night."

BB-12 beeps in agreement and the two of us head back towards the barn.

Behind us, on the grass, there are remnants of ice shards and burn marks scorched into the grass. And the next morning, I would find a brand new scar on my stomach that I hadn't had before.

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Poe's necklace gets me eVeRyTiMe. it's rly rly rly hot

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