You Learn To Live Without || Chenzel Story

7. impact

IDINAS POV

"Dee, you were amazing!" I look up when Kristin jumps into my arms almost making me crash to the ground. "You weren't bad yourself" I say with a smirk causing her to hit my arm. I take her hand and we make our way to her dressing room. She keeps talking about how amazing she thought I did tonight but my thoughts wander off to the little blonde girl sitting in the fifth row. She reminded me of Luna. It's 10 years today, it's her tenth birthday today. I swallow away the tears and shake away the memory of her. "I'm gonna degreenify myself" I smile as I drop off Kristin at her dressing room. She smiled and with that we both close our doors behind us.
The warm water falls on my skin while I brush off all the green make up. It's 6 pm so I have all night alone, alone with my thoughts.

Once I finished showering I tie my hair up into a bun. I slip into some sweatpants and threw on my green wicked hoodie. I grap all of my stuff and make my way to my car. The drive home is without music since I'm not in the mood at all. Once I make it to my apartment I sigh. My hands are on the steering wheel and find myself just staring out of the front window. After a while I  get out of my car and make my way up to the third floor. I turn the key into the lock of my door and open the door into my apartment. I kick off my shoes and turn on the light by flipping on the switch. I drop my purse on the table and make my way to the refrigerator. Without thinking I pour myself a glass of wine and sit myself on the stool at the bar. I totally zone out wandering off with my thoughts again. Thinking about the show, thinking about my life and thinking about the future. I snap out of my thoughts by the sound of my phone going off. I refill my glass while  opening my phone.

KC: "Hi did you make it home okay? You seemed a bit off" with a smiley face and a chipmunk emoji. I can't help but smile at her use of the random chipmunk smiley. I put down my glass of wine as text her back. "I made it home fine, just a little tired. What are you up to?" I end the sentence with a smiley face and press send. As I put down my phone it lights up again. KC again. "I'm trying to decide what to have for diner? what are you gonna eat, I need inspiration" with a laughing emoji at the end. Diner, I haven't thought about that. I figure ordering in is probably the best idea. "I'm ordering in. You wanna come over?" I pressed the send button before I could even think about it. Kristin has been offline for a few minutes, so I intend to delete the message before she sees it. At the moment I select the message her typing bubble pops up. To late! "It's a date! I'll be over in half an hour" with a kissy face. I can feel my cheeks burn up and my stomach going crazy. I finish my glass of wine and order some diner. I put on more decent clothing and wait for both Kris and the delivery guy to arrive. My heart skipped a few of beats when I hear the doorbell ringing. breathe idina, just breathe. I take a fast look at the clock. 7.20 pm. It's probably the delivery guy. I open the door and like I thought I face the young guys with a bag with two boxes. He hands me the boxes and I pay him. With a simple goodbye I close the door and put the food on the bar. I take two plates out of the cabinet above the counter. Two forks, two knifes and one extra wineglass since I already have a glass.

KRISTINS POV

At exactly 7.30 pm I press my finger against Idinas doorbell, causing a harsch sound. A few seconds later the door swings open and Idina with her generous smile appears in the door opening. "hi, you're right on time" she smiles as she lets me in. She takes my coat and shows me to to the kitchen. "Take place" she says as she sits in front of me. "I got you a lasagna" she says as she hands me the little box. "you're amazing, thank you" I say trying not to blush to much. We talk about the show, about the press, the reviews and all that stuff. After we finish I help her clean the dishes. She is concentrated on polishing the plates in the sink. I carefully slid my hand into the soap tossing it onto her face making her jump. She let out a small scream and her head immediately turns to me with a playful smirk on her face. She takes a hand full of soap and stepping in my direction and on that moment I knew I was gonna get karma.

Once we cleaned up after our little soap occasion we sat down on her couch. She sits in the corner of the couch with her legs crossed and a glass of wine in her hand. "Do you ever think of the impact that our show has on people?" she asked. I frowned as I look at her. "What do you mean?" I say while taking a sip from my wine. "well, the impact it has on people. The story we tell, I mean I often wonder what they tell their friends, family or their children after they see the show." she explains. "Hmm, we do tell a beautiful story. About two woman who become friends in spite of their inequality. They care about eachother no matter what, just like you and I" I smile as she nods her head in agreement. She looks at me and I can see the tears appearing in her eyes. "No dee, don't cry. I didn't want to upset you." I shift closer to her and wipe away the falling tear on her cheek. The next moment happened really fast. She leaned in and all I could feel was her soft lips on mine. In shock, that what you can call it. Despite the shock I reacted pretty fast. I kissed her back willingly. She leaned back making herself fall onto her back which was causing me to be on top of her. Her arms were around my neck and I could feel her lips curl into a smile against mine. My mind goes back to last week, when she drunk called me saying that she loved me. Maybe she did, maybe she wasn't that drunk. No it can't be, she couldn't even remember that she called me. I'm having a discussion with myself. Even though this was what every inch of my whole body wanted I snapped back to reality. I break off the kiss and looked her in shock. "Dee, you can't do this. You're married" it came out louder than I meant. Where the hell was Taye actually. Questions zoomed through my brain. "Dee, you can't do this" i whispered again. She just sat there in silence looking down at her hands, probably as shocked as I am. "Kris" she whispered. She was cheating on her husband with me. The realisation began to hit and I started to freak out. "You're cheating. Cheating Idina!" she shiverd at the fact that I was using her whole name. "Kris, I can explain." I shaked my head. "No! There is nothing to explain here. This can't be happening. I see you at the show!" And those words said I turned around and I left her. Once her door closed behind me I break down. I''m totally aware of the facts that I overreacted. I don't know if it was anger, sadness or release what I'm feeling at the moment. Whatever it was it made room for fear. Fear of being the reason they would get a divorce, fear of them fighting because of her. So many emotions and so many tears. Where did you get yourself in Kris, what did you do..

A/N
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