You Learn To Live Without || Chenzel Story

45. exhausting days

KRISTINS POV

Sometimes you have those days where you and your partner come home, both totally exhausted and not in the mood to do anything. Today was one of those days. Idina came home after a day with two shows and I was stuck in the theatre the whole day with rehearsals. She ate at the theatre and I ordered pizza while waiting for her to come home. When I come back from finishing my pizza and throwing away the box I find Idina curled up on the couch. Her arm dangling on the ground and her other hand clutched onto the pillow supporting her head. I can't help but smile before walking over to her. I gently cover her up with a blanket, strike a loose hair behind her ear and kiss her temple. After that I sit down and Thunder hops on the couch to cuddle herself next to me. I focus myself on the television while cuddling my hand through Thunder her brown fur. After a while I hear the sound of Idinas phone going off. I gently place my hands on Idinas shoulders before shaking her a little. "Honey, your phone is ringing. Wake up" I genlty whisper causing her to stir a little. A soft groan escapes out of her mouth and her eyes open slowly. She looks around slightly confused but then stands up to find her phone. "Idina Menzel" I hear her voice coming from the kitchen and I can hear the slight hoarseness in her voice from just waking up. After a few minutes she walks back into the livingroom putting her phone in her backpocket. "Who was that?" I ask without looking up from the television. "Hmm some press things" she mumbles as she sits back next to me. I look over to her and see her staring straight forward. "Maybe we should go to bed early today?" I say while sooftly squeezing her hand. She looks over to me and gives me a small smile. I can see she is tired, so I actually think it's a good idea. "Come, let's shower and we can cuddling in bed" her smile grows a little as soon as I mention cuddling and she stands up pulling me in the movement. We shower a little longer than normal and end up cuddling in bed afterward. Just as said.

IDINAS POV

After showering we ended up cuddling in bed. Her blonde hair is tied in a bun and I rest my head on her head. Her fingers are gently stroking up and down my arm and in that moment it's just me and her. My mind on the other hand is overthinking the conversation I had on the phone earlier. Lunas dad had called again with an update about Luna. It was freaking me out, because now that she knew it all came so much closer that it used to be. I lay my eyes on the blonde in my arms and place a kiss on the top of her head. I should tell her one day, I can't keep this for me only for much longer. She will hate me if I don't tell her soon. No more secrets. I hear my own voice in the back of my head and mentally torture myself for not keeping that promise. I need to tell her really soon. "Dee?" she asks slightly startling me. "Yes honey?" I whisper while placing a kiss on her temple. "can I ask you a weird question?" she says causing me to frown my eyebrow. "Sure?" I let out with some hestitation not really being sure where she is going. "I have been thinking about this a lot since.. uhm the hospital" she starts stuttering and I sit myself up causing her to sit straight up too. "Kris, are you okay?" she is kind of freaking me out right now. "yeah, uhm I don't know how to ask. But it's just a what if okay?" she is literally scaring me now. "Whatever it is you can ask me honey" I pull her body against me and she starts fiddling onto my sleeping blouse. "What if you would've died.. in the hospital? What would you've wanted if it happened?" she whispers looking up to me. I give her a small smile. "Firstly, I'm still here okay, i'm not going anywhere. You're not getting rid of me that easily." I say kissing the tip of her nose. "Secondly I would've wanted you to cremate me and disseminate me on the place where we had our first date. That place is special to me and than you could and visit me without having to stare at a grave." I let out while stroking my finger on her cheek. "What made you think about that honey?" I ask being still a little confused by this sudden subject. "I watched something on tv and that made me think about it" she says. "And what about you?" I ask her now being curious about her answer. She thinks for a second before answering. "I'd want to be cremated too. And then I'd want you to keep me close. Or disseminate me on a place that makes you think of us, so that I can still be with you." she speaks giving me a small smile. "We should write that down somewhere, incase it's needed" she continues and I give her a little nod. "But let's not think about that for now. We're both here. In the same bed and I'm ready to cuddle you to sleep for the night" I say laying down with her and cuddling close to her. "Goodnight my darling" she whispers before turning off the lights. "Goodnight my sweet"

KRISTINS POV

When I wake up I force my eyes to focus in the dark. I look over to the alarmclock on the side table as it just jumps over to 6.42 in the morning. I let out a silent yawn as I listen to the steady breathing of my brunette girlfriend next to me. She is still fast asleep with her arm lightly dangled halfway my waist. After watching her sleep for a while she starts stirring. Her eyelids are moving and her face expression shows she is uncomfortable. I wait a few second for it to settle but when it doesnt I shift closer to her and brush my finger in circles over her arm. As soon as she feels the touch she seems to calm down and I watch how she goes back to her normal state. 

Apparently I fell back asleep because I startle awake by the harsh sound of the alarm. I'm in Idinas arms but I feel her stir too. It's always been more difficult to wake her up in the morning so I normally give her a moment. I get myself out of bed and grin at the sight of my sleeping girlfriend. I slip on a robe and my slippers to make my way over to the bathroom. A simple shower, my skincare routine, brush my teeth and I twist my hair in a bun, because I don't feel like hairdrying my hair today. When I get back from doing my morning routine Idina is sprawled out on the bed as usual and that the moment for me to actually wake her up. In opposite to me she doesn't really have morning routine, that why I let her sleep for those 30 more minutes. She will most likely jump in the shower, brush her teeth, twist her messy brown curls in a bun and then get dressed. Then we will eat breakfast together and we do whatever the day brings us. Which is most likely the theatre or a meeting with our agent. So today will probably not be that different. 

"Dee I'm off to rehearsals!" I yell through the apartment having absolute no clue where she is. "Wait!" is all she answers followed by quickend footsteps. I can't help but smile when she appears in a black skinny jeans and her bra. "I thought you just changed?!" i chuckle before kissing her lips. "I wasn't feeling the outfit" she smiles and I let my eyes glide over her body. "My eyes are up here" she deadpans before lifting my chin up. "I'm going to miss those boobs the whole day today" I grin earning me a slap on my bottom. "I gotta go now, I'm running late" I say and then kiss her goodbye. "Have fun, see you tonight" she replies and with that I make my way to the car. The drive from home to work isn't long, but I feels longer because I genually don't like sitting in a car. And besides that New York traffic is annoying the hell out of me. Honking cars everywhere, reckless people crossing the road and so much to pay attention to. I tap my fingers on the steeringwheel while I wait for the red trafficlight. "Why does this one take so long" I say with a sign. After what feels like forever the light jumps to green and drive off. Two turns left and one to the right before I come on my least favorite crossroad. I step on the accelerator to speed up since I'm not in the mood to wait another time for the red trafficlight. As soon as I cross the road I see something coming straight at me from the corner of my eye. The next thing I know is a lot of sounds and an huge bang. I feel my car flipping over and after what feels like forever it comes to rest. The sudden feeling of unbareble pain goes through my body. I hear muffled sounds of the people around me asking me to much things at the same time. My mind goes from work, to rehearsal, to Idina and then everything goes black.

I'm sorry for this😅
I didn't feel like correcting this again, so I'm sorry if there arr sone spelling mistakes.
Hope y'all have a good day💗
Xo Mel