You Learn To Live Without || Chenzel Story

46. Wizard and I

IDINAS POV

And I'll stand there with the Wizard

Feeling things I've never felt

And though I'd never show it

I'd be so happy I could melt

And so it will be for the rest of my life

And I'll want nothing else 'till I die

Held in such high esteem

When people see me they will scream

For half of Oz's favorite team

The Wizard and I

I belt out the last note of the Wizard as I stand in the centre of the empty stage. The audience goes crazy and I feel a sign of relieve falling over my body. The Wizard and I is done, it's going to be a good night. We get through what is this feeling, something bad, dancing through life without any bumps in the road. At popular there is a small malfunction when the flowerclips doesn't stick in my hair and we have to improvise. After popular we go through I'm not that girl, one short day and sentimental men before it's finally time to defy gravity. My favorite part of the show since a while. It used to be for good, but since Kris left the show I don't get the sparkles when I sing that song. My mind automatically goes to her and the realisation is harsh when I snap out of that to the fact that she is not singing it with me. Don't get me wrong the current Glindas are all good, but I still miss my blonde. Eventhough I can come home to her every night, I still miss sharing the stage with her. I snap out of my thoughts by Megan screaming my name after I ran onto the stage. I snap right back into the scene and we make a good run through the number. At the end I move over to the place where I go into the air but from the corner of my eye I see Eden all greenified in the sidewing. "She has nothing to do with it, I'm the one you want. It's me. It's meeeee" I sing out while I levitate into the air. "So if you care to find me, look to the western sky. As someone told me lately, everyone deserves a change to fly." I look around the theatre watching the people in the audience watch me in awe. "And if I'm flying solo, atleast I'm flying free. To those who ground me take this message back from me" my attention draws to the side wing again. "Tell them how I am defying gravity, I'm flying high, defying gravity. And soon I'll match them in renown" I on the top of my lungs. It's not that it never happened that Eden showed up in the sidewing, but not fully greenified and almost ready to go and that part freaks me out a little. "And nobody. In all of Oz. No Wizard that there is or was. Is ever gonna bring me. Down" I hold onto the note knowing I need to steady my breath to get through the next notes. "Bring me down" take a breath somewhere before I belt out the last note and then the theatre goes dark. Once the curtains are closed they let me come down. As soon as I hit the ground I have Eden pulling me into the side wing and multiple stage hands talking at the same time. I try to focus on one of them but it's not working. "One at the time please. And why are you in green?" I point to Eden who looks me dead in the eye before saying 5 words I didn't know could hurt so much. "Kristin is in the hospital"

The next moments all seem in slowmotion. I can feel Joby supporting me while tech starts deducting my micset. Eden is speaking but her voice is muffled for my ears. Everything is happening at the same time and it's literally too much for me to handle. "She is what" I finally let out after what feels like forever. Apperantly Joby lead me to my dressing room which suprised me because I can't even feel my own legs. "She had a car accident. She was consciousness when the paramedics arrived but I was told that she lost consciousness in the ambulance. They wouldn't tell me anymore because I wasn't a family member, they asked for you after she spoke your name" the information seems to take forever to land but I just nod. "Do you want me to drive you?" I hear Joby ask as she puts her arm on my upperarm. I just give a small nod again still trying to proces the information I just got. "I'm green" I whisper. "I'm green, joby. I. I. I. I can't shower, I have to go to her" I whisper again and Joby just nods. "I'll take the remover with me. I'll clean you in the cab, it's okay" she tries soothing me, but I can feel the panic falling over my body. "I need my pills" I breathe out gasping for more air. "Eden pass her purse, we're going" she says leading me out of the dressing room. "She is gonna be okay dee" I hear Eden yell before the door closes behind me. I try to make a mental note to thank Joby later but I know I will forget that. She managed to give me my pills, let me swallow them with water, get me into the car and stay calm next to me behind a steeringwheel in the New York traffic. I should've told her. "What did you say?" I snap out of my thoughts by hearing Joby her voice. "Hmm?" I mumble looking over to her while trying my hardest to wipe the green of my face. "Something about tell her?" she says putting her hand om my thigh. I remain silence scrubbing the little sponse over my face. "It's okay dina, I know you well enough to know you'll tell me eventually" she smiles and I just give her a small smile. "Also srubbing that hard is not gonna work. You need to be precise and make slow motions. It won't all come off, but it should be enough to be a little presentable" she speaks with a small reassuring smile. "thank you" I whisper barely audible but she seems to hear it. After 15 minutes of pure stress we finally reach the hospital. I am about to jump out of the car but Joby stops me. I look at her a little annoyed but then I look at the hoodie she is holding. "You're green and in costume. Atleast put this on" she chuckles and I can't help but smile. I put the hoodie on while walking and I watch how Joby goes to the desk to ask about Kristin. It takes a little longer that I expected but after 5 minutes she walks back to me. "They wouldn't give me information so I had to throw in the "I know Idina Menzel" for the second time in my life" she scoffs making me laugh. "But she is out of surgery and she is in the IC. You can go check on her." she lets out giving me a little paper. I look from the paper to her. "Don't look at me like that, you know as well as I do that you are not able of remembering numbers so I had them write it down." she says while giving me a gentle push. "are you coming?" I can hear my voice crack again, but she shakes her head. "I'm going to drive back to the theatre, give the rest a update, help Eden because her dresser is sick and then I'll be back with clothes because people will think your crazy if they see you in costume" she blurts out stroking a hair behind my ear. She hands me the green remover with a new sponse and squeezes my hand. "Go to your girl, I'm one phone call away okay. I will be back in few hours" and with that she hugs me and I watch her walk back to the car. I look down to myself, she is right. I'm in a full black dress, still painted half green, black boots and my hair twisted in a messy bun because I did change it since they took of my wig. People are going to think I'm crazy.. I let out a sign and put aside the thought. I need to see Kristin. I need to see if she is okay. I open up the crumbled paper Joby gave me. "15C" it says so I guess that's where we're heading.

I am used to being look at but being look at in a hospital isn't something I'm very comfortable with. I know I look like a freak, but that doesn't really matter to me at the moment. I fasten my pace walking up to the room number that was written down on the paper. Before grabbing the cold door handle I do a quick prayer hoping that she is okay. Everything seems to disappear when I open the door. My eyes are only focused on the blond in the bed. This is what she must have felt when she saw me like this. We had this talk not long ago about her seeing me in the worst state and I feel even more guilty that I already did. It was an accident. I hear myself saying it to Cara when she kept freaking out. I'm okay now. I hear myself say it to Kristin just two nights ago. The Kristin that is now laying in front of me. It looks like she is sleeping peacefully, which is weird for me to see since I always fall asleep earlier and wake up later. I slide a chair next to the bed and gently grab her hand. "Kris, I'm here" I whisper not knowing if she can even hear me. And then I just sit there, looking at her. Doctors come in, doctors walk out. Checking on her and giving me information. "She is progressing, we expect her to wake up soon" he says to me and I just know that he is scanning me because I still haven't changed my clothes. "She is gonna be fine"

A/N
I hope you had a wonderful day and you like this chapter. I can assure you it will be fine eventually😘
Xo Mel