You Learn To Live Without || Chenzel Story

41. luna

LUNAS POV

"It's been so long since we had an early day off. I can't believe my dad actually let me come with you to the city" I smile to the smaller redhead whos walking next to me. Vanessa and I met the first week I moved here and we've been inseperateble ever since. "Oh ness, we have to remember to pick up groceries before going home, because my dad had to go to the hospital and didn't have time to stop by the supermarket" I state and she just nods her head while focusing on not bumping into everyone. "I still can't get used to the fact that the city is so much more crowded. I mean we only live a few blocks away and it's like a world of difference with our calm neighbourhood." I let out a chuckle and loop my arms through hers. "Where do you want to go first?" I ask her while scanning the street around me. "What about the topshop?"

"Okay we have 3  more hours to go, a few more shops to visit and groceries to pick up" I smile while walking out of the 5th shop in a row. "Let's have lunch first, I'm starving" I give her a loopsided grin and chuckle. "Vanessa and being hungery? That's something new" I let out sarcastically causing her to poke me in my side. "Let's go get something to eat then, we've been walking for the past 1,5 hours so you deserve some food" I let out a chuckle while dragging her to the first lunchroom I see. "What do you want?" I look over to my best friend and she scans the window in front of her. "I would like an bagel with chicken please" is nessa choice after a few moments of silence. "Yeah same for me" I say looking up to the woman behind the bar. After paying we take the bagels from the woman and make our way outside. "Do you want to sit in the park so we can eat more comfortable?" I look over to Vanessa waiting for her to answer. "Yeah sure" she answers. "watch out" she warned me but before I can look up I bump into someone dropping my bag. "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry" I stutter while grabbing all of my stuff together. "It's okay darling, are you okay?"

KRISTINS POV

I feel Idina pulling my arms but before I can step aside I bump into someone. The brunette girl isn't very much smaller than me and she lowers herself to pick her bag from the street. "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry" she stutters and I help her up. "It's okay darling, are you okay?" she nods and finally managed to look up at me. Her eyes grew bigger for a second but she recovers quickly. "You are the woman from wicked?" the red haired girl next to her whispers  and I'm assuming that's her friend. I give her a small nod and I can see the brunette looking next to me. The corners of her mouth lift up a little when her eyes meet Idinas. "It's weird seeing her without the green isn't it" I chuckle breaking the short silence looking over to Idina who gives me a quick smile. The girls look at eachother and the brunnette nods. "I saw wicked some time ago with my mom and you two were amazing" her voice goes softer as soon as she mentioned her mom and I see how her friend steps closer to her to put her hand on her back. "Don't you two have school?" both of the girls shakes their heads. "We got off early" the redhead says while I watch the brunnette searching around in her backpack. She pulls out a notebook and a pen. "Could you maybe sign this?" she turns the notebook around. As I see the wicked cover I can't help to smile. "You go first dee?" she simply nods and takes the notebook. She gives the girls in front of us a smile. "What's your name darling?" she turns to the redhaired girl. "Vanessa ma'am" she stutters and I watch Idina scribble the name of the girl with a little message and her usual xo. She flips the page and looks up again. Her eyes meet the smaller brunnettes eyes. "And what's your name honey?" she smiles having her pen ready to write something down. "Luna" she says and Idina starts writing. Her hand twitched but she recovers fast and writes down a quick note before handing the notebook to me. I quickly write something down for the two girls before wishing them a good day and waving them goodbye. After watching the two giggling happy girls walk away I turn to Idina. "Are you okay?" I whisper gently taking her hand. She slowly nods before finally making eyecontact with me. "Yeah why wouldn't I be"

IDINAS POV

I let my finger strike down her little face. Her beautiful green eyes glare at me and it's almost like she knows. She is smart already, she knows what's up. She will wake up tomorrow and she will look at the ceiling of this unknown room. Her eyes will fill up with tears and she will start crying. Her mom or dad will come get her and rock her back and forth before she falls back asleep. Her belly will be filled with fresh food, her room will be filled with toys and her heart will be filled with love. 

I snap out of my thoughts when I feel her little fingers swirling around in my thick brown hair. She pulls my hair trying to get herself up. "You're a strong little girl" I whisper while untangling her little fingers out of my hair. I hold her onto my chest and gently delight her soft brown hair while rocking her back and forth. She brings her little hand to her mouth trying to find her thumb. Once she found it she slowly starts mouthing almost closing her eyes in the progress. Her little body is clinged against my chest and I have to prevent myself from starting to cry. I hold her little body against my chest for what may be the last time and I feel a tear falling down my cheek. After a while I finally get myself up from the chair and walk my way over to the crib in the corner of the room. I gently put her down and watch her for a bit. I let my finger down her cheek, stroke her hair behind her ear and hold on to her little finger. "Mommy will always love you, Luna, Always"

Once I close the door behind me I have three pair of eyes looking at me. "She is asleep" I let out while holding back my tears. I can feel Jet grabbing my hand and giving me a small squeeze. "You can come see her whenever you want?"  Mandy says giving me a ressuring smile. I manage to give her a weak smile back. "I think it's better like this. She deserves all the happiness. She deserves you" I whisper softly. "Remind her that she is loved and that she can be anyone she wants to be" Mandy nods slowly before waving me goodbye. "take care of her" and with those words I walk away. Walking away from my daughter.

After what feels like forever Jet stops the car and I look up. "I want to go home" is my response as I see where he drove me. "I don't want to be here" I state as I feel the tears poking behind my eyes. I hear Jet walking and within a second my door flew open and he drags me out of the car. "I swear to god, I just want to go home" I try to escape out of his grip but he keeps dragging me. "We are going to sit here, watch the sunset and eat." he says before putting down the basket he apparently had in his other hand. He sits me down and pulls my body against him. "I know you are blaming yourself Dina, I know you and I know your thinking. But this is and was the best thing to do." he whispers while stroking my hair behind my ear. I remain silence as I watch the view in front of me. "Do you remember when you find out you were pregnant and I brought you here? I promised you that we would figure it out together. I would always be with you no matter what. And that's not going to change Dina. You're the closest thing I have to a sister and I'm not going to let this take a toll with you. One day you will look back and you will thank youself for making this incredibly hard choice. Because it will be better for you, but also for her" he says while stroking up and down my arm. "What if she hates me?" he doesnt even answer he just pulls me closer to his chest. "She will understand eventually. You may not be her mom, but you will always be her mother. She is your luna" he gives me a smile and I nod "My luna"

I want to say on beforehand that the luna storyline became a little sloppy from this point. Its a bit rushed and stuff, but I couldnt just take storyline away so I got to deal with what I had haha
Xo Mel