You Learn To Live Without || Chenzel Story

30. one short day

KRISTINS POV

I groan as I hear the alarm going off but by my suprise it's not the one in the bedroom. I open my eyes and feel the cold side next to me. For a second I get confused why she is not here but then I remember yesterdays event and I can feel myself getting frustrated again. I don't even know why I'm this frustrated with Idina, but she is shutting down again. It's not that I can't deal with her walls up again, because I can do that. But she is shutting me out and letting someone else in. And not just someone, but she is letting in another blonde woman. Okay Kristin, maybe you are overthinking again. Maybe you should give her some time. I shake off the thought and get out of bed to get myself under a cold shower. I need to cool down before I can face her.

After I showered way to cold for my being I dry off my body. I put my hair in a bun and walk over to the mirror. I look at my pale face and the bags under my eyes. My insomnia kicked in last night after the fight and I kept tossing in the bed. After a few hours I finally gave in and took my pills. I managed to get 3 hours of sleep but it was anything but peaceful. "Ugh you look awful" I say to my reflection. "maybe because you feel awful dumbass?" I murmur to myself while putting on some make up. My mind goes to the schedule for today. It's 7.30 am on a saterday which means I have a whole morning at home. Which means being with Idina. Although I can go to the theatre earlier so I don't have to pick up the fight again. We're playing 2 shows today so I have to save up the energy I have. Besides that I'd rather not pick up the discussion before the show because I don't like playing opposite from her when we're not okay with eachother. "That's is presentable" I let out a as I finish my basis make up. I check the room before stepping out of the bathroom and I slip into some decent clothes. I can hear Thunder her paws tip toeing over the floor and I can hear Idina praising the dog for something she apparently did right. I slowly make my way into the livingroom causing Idina to look up. She is dressed properly and she stopped petting Thunder. "goodmorning" is all I say before making my way to the kitchen. "Kris? We need to talk?" her voice is still sleepy. I look over to the couch where she is sitting but I don't make direct eye contact. "Not now, I don't want to talk about it now. We will talk about it tonight." I state while turning around to get a bowl for my cereal. She doesn't respond and I hear the tv turning on. And within a few seconds the livingroom is filled with the voice of the newsreader on tv, my spoon going around my bowl and the akward silence between Idina and me.

IDINAS POV

it's 1.00 PM when I rush myself into the theatre. I've been overthinking the whole morning which caused me to run late. "I'm sorry, I'm here" I bring out while I lean forwards agains the wall panting because of the running. Joby just smiles and hands me the dress for the first act. While she gets my other stuff I get myself out of my clothes into the dress. A few seconds after that graig orders me to sit down so he can start painting me green. "Did you even sleep last night? You're bags are not healthy dina?" I glare at him in the mirror causing him to raise his eyebrown. "I will be fine" I say knowing that saying that will take less time than explaining why I haven't slept last night. He doesn't seem to buy it, but he remains silence. I give him a little smile and wait for him to finish up my green make up. After a while he is done with my make up and Joby comes in with my other stuff. "Sorry again for running late. I hate it whenever you have to rush because of me" I mumble making both Joby and Graig giving me a smile. "No worries, we got to it in time. You're ready to shine right now" 

"I've been thinking of possibly changing my name" Kristin her voice sounds through the theatre. "Sorry your name?" Norbert shows his Fiyero pure confusion face and I look from one to the other. "Yes. Yes! Since doctor Dillamond had his own way of pronouncing my name. In solardarity and to express my outrage I will be no longer known as GAlinda, but simply glinda." as soon as kristin spoke those words the audience burst out in laughter. I look from Kristin to Norbert to the audience. "Uh well, thats nice of you. Glinda, yeah goodluck" he stutters and with that he moves off stage. That leaves me and Kristin on the stage to continue the rest of the scene. "See, there is it." she whimpers while pointing in the direction Norbert went. I cling onto the suitcase I'm holding. "ah don't cry galinda" "it's glinda now" she pauses for a second. "stupid idea, I don't even know why I even said it" she sniffles in her glinda act. I let out a silent sigh and walk towards Kristin. "It doesn't matter what your name is. Everybody loves you" I'm standing right in front of her with my hands clamped around the handle of the suitcase. Since a long time I actually feel the same as Elphie. Everybody loves the tiny blonde in front of me. She looks up to me with tears in her eyes. "I don't care. Not him. I mean he is not perfect anymore but I still want him." she paused for a second and looks down at the floor. "This must be what other people feel like" she pulls her fake cry face causing the audience to laugh again.  "how do they bare it" she whimpers and I pull her into a hug. I know it's just our characters hugging and us acting but my heart skips a beat because of the feeling of holding her again after last night. Eventhough it made me feel nice I can feel Kristins body tense up in the hug knowing she is not comfortable in this situation. She is either still mad at me or she just doesn't want me anywhere near her. "Please don't ever leave me. I can't loose you.." I whisper causing her to look up. But I don't care I took my change to say my words through elphies words. She glares at me. "it won't be the same without you" I can see a tear blinking in her eye and for a split second she connects her eyes with mine. For the first time since yesterday afternoon. I snap out of the moment as I realise we still need to go on. "Come with me to the emerald city?" is what I manage to bring out. She gives me a smile but I know very well that it's a glinda smile. "I've always wanted to see the emerald city" she grasps while grabbing my hand and we walk over to the middle of the stage where the doors open. The green lights fill the stage and the emerald city character walk on stage. Kristin and I walk through the others and we run backstage for our quick change. 

KRISTINS POV

We rush backstage for our quick change but my mind is still with the lines she just said. "Please don't leave me. I can't loose you" I couldn't help to look up where I saw all the hurt in her eyes. I just blacked out. I don't know what to do with that. I don't know what to do with her. "Kris you ready?" I snap out my thought to see Idina standing in front of me. She is fully changed and her hand is reaching for mine. With some uncertainty I take her hand and we rush back to stage. Come on Kris, put on that Glinda smile. "There are buildings tall as quoxwood trees" she lightly squeezes my hand. "dress salons" "and libraries" "palaces!" "museums" "A hundred strong" we give eachother a short look. "there are wonders like i've never seen" she gives me a smile and I smile back. "And it's all grand" "And it's all green" she lets out a little chuckle as she does every time. That chuckle that makes my heart stop for one second. That one little thing that makes my world stop for one split second. And I'm not feeling it. It's not there and I feel my body tense. Focus Kristin. Act. "I think we've found the place where we belong!" I give her a smile and she puts her hand in mine. "I wanna be in the hoi polloi." we exchange a look and then she lets go to walk forward. "So I'll be back for good someday" "to make my life and make my way" "but for today, we'll wander and enjoy"

We're heading toward the end of the song and I can feel the energy coming from the audience. Which is giving me an energyboost too. "where so many roam to. We'll call it home too. And then, just like now we can say" I look over to the green girl next to me. "we're  just two friends" she takes off her sunglasses and looks at me. "Two good friends" I take off my sunglasses too. "Two best friends" I sing with a smile. "sharing one wonderful.. one short....." the ensemble sings there lines and all I feel is Idinas hand in mine. "The wizard will see you now" we let go off our linked hands and grap the mans hand. He makes us spin and the ensemble sets in the last note before the stage goes dark. I let go of his hand and follow everybody into the sidewing for the next scene. You can do this Kris. it's just acting.

Turns out I suck at updating haha. But hey here is a new part😊
I'm sorry in advance
Xo mel