You Learn To Live Without || Chenzel Story

32. Her

KRISTINS POV

"Jeez Kris, it's 7.30 in the morning. What are you doing out of your bed on a monday. It's your OFF broadway day, you should take the change and sleep in for once." Danny his sleepy voice sounds through the room as he stumble towards the couch. "My insomnia kicked in and I couldn't sleep anymore. I'm sorry that I woke you" I look up from the phone to meet his disordered face. "It's okay, I needed to get up anyway. I have a job interview at that new restaurant down the street" he says while sitting down next to me. "Did you sleep at all Kris?" He puts his hand on my hand making me put down my phone. I look at him and give him a smile. "I did, not much but I did sleep. Stop worrying about me. I have always been like this even back when we we're younger, so don't act like it's a big deal" he just smiles and goes with his hand through my hair. "you want some coffee?" he changes the subject and stand up from the couch. "Yes please" I say while taking my phone again. "What is so damn important on that phone that you look at it like that?" he states after coming back with coffee. "Kris, Hello? Attention?" he snaps his figners in front of my face "what?!' I snap a little. "What is on that phone? Do you have a new lover or something?" my eyes shoot up and I glare at him. His facial expression changes within a few seconds knowing he made a wrong comment. "Sorry, I didn't mean that" he brings out. "But what is so important on the phone what you won't tell me" he continues. I roll my eyes and hand him my phone. "You were never going to stop asking were you?" he chuckles and sticks out his tongue. "nope" he says triumphantic. His eyes are scanning the screen. "Oh god, that's great Kris. That's amazing" he squeals handing me back my phone. "I know, but.." the look on his face changes. "You need to stop doing wicked" is his reaction when I don't finish the sentence. I slowly nod and reread the text from my agentcy. "have you told her yet?" his voice is low sounding almost afraid to speak. I shake my head. "no, I heared it yesterday after encore" I get myself on my feet and start pacing around. "She is going to hate me either way. If I tell her or if I don't tell her and she finds out another way." I can see danny follwing me from the corner of my eye. "Nothing is official yet, so no need to stress Krissy" his voice is calm and steady. I turn around facing him. "I'm stressing myself again aren't I?" I glare at him and he slowly nods. "come here" he opens his arms for me to be hold. I give in and sit myself in his arms. "Just think about what you want and when everything is fixed you can tell her and the rest of the cast" he says stroking my back. "it's going to be fine" he brings out and kisses me on the top of my head. 

*one week later*

IDINAS POV

"I'm exhausted Joby, I swear to god" I state before letting myself fall onto my couch. "That's because you're not taking your sleeping pills" she states being more serious than expected. I sigh and glare at her. "Not you too, everyone keeps telling me that I need my pills. I AM FINE" I throw my hands in the air while stating out the last three words. "I'm just looking after you dina, because I do care about you" she says and gently pats my cheek. "I know you do, but it's just that everytime everyone start with how are you my mind goes to her" my voices softens and I fiddle with my fingers. "I miss her eventhough she is right in front of me" I whisper trying to hold back my tears. "I know you do dina, but she is not gone yet. Just keep a little hope" I just nod and stand up from the couch. "Let's get me ready to go"

Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart

I watch Kristin walking over the empty stage. She is wearing her light blue glinda dress and she has tears streaming down her cheeks. My eyes follow her around the stage as she walks to the other side before continuing the song.

There is a girl I know
He loves her so

She takes a deep shaky breath causing me to frown my eyebrow. I know it's commen for her to cry during this scene but her voice is always under control. Unless.. Oh god something is going on.

I'm not that girl

She holds her low note while I get ready for the next scene. It's my scene with norbert, but my thoughts are nowhere else than with Kristin. Normally I would be the one to know, but I guess I'm not that girl anymore.

After we got our applause I went straight to the shower to wash my green off. I was secretly hoping that the cold water of the shower would fix the tiredness but that didn't seem to work. After a solid 20 minutes I collapes on the couch to watch Joby put away my dresses. "Do you never hate me for not doing anything?" I chuckle as I watch her struggle to straighten second dress out. She chuckles but shakes her head. "It's my job for a reason haha. And besides that whenever I do it you won't ruin the dresses" she says with a wink. I roll my eyes and throw the nearest pillow to her head. "see even when you're not nearby you still manage to almost ruin the dress" she laughs after putting the last dress away. "It's a good thing you love me" I say before getting up from the couch. "I will clean up the make up so that I'm not totally useless" Joby just laughs and goes on with cleaning my clothing. I organise my make up dresser and put back everything where it belongs. "I'm going home if you don't need me anymore" Joby says pointing to all the dresses that are organised and put back. "You're the best, and no I don't need anything I think. So you can go home." She hugs me goodbye and makes me promise that I take my pills before she leaves the room. I let out a sigh when I see Joby left the door open and I walk over to close it. Before closing the door I hear a familiar voice of Kristin talking from the hallway. I tell myself not to eavedrop and to just close the door but that is hard to be done than expected. "I know Dan, but I need to tell her one way or the other." she paused to listen to her best friend on the other side of the phone. "No, what do you expect me to say. "Hey dina I need to tell you something?" it's not that easy, you know." her voice is barely audible but my heart dropped a beat when she mentioned my name. Before I know I opened my door and I'm facing the tiny blonde in front of me. She looks from her phone to me. "Uh dan, I need to go. I see you tonight" she says slowly bringing the phone from her phone. "What do you need to tell me?" I look into her blue eyes. "I- uh can we go into your room?" she stutters. I step back to let her past me into my dressingroom and I close the door behind me. "Kris, please tell me what's going on" my voice has gone cold and distant. The headache in my head is pounding and not to mention the exhaustement is taking over my body. "I'm leaving" she brings out and my eyes shoot up to hers. "You're what?!" my voice cracks in the transition from soft to loud. "Dina, please let's not fight for once" is all she says. "I'm not fighting you. You promised you wouldn't leave." I get up and start pacing around the room. "I was offered a role in another play. It's called Candide and it's a semi staged concert production on broadway" she whispers while looking down at her fingers. I can feel the tears poking behind my eyes. "So you are just going to leave" is all I can bring out. "It's a new opportunity Dee, new changes and a new challenge. I need that" her eyes are begging me. "And I need you. Here. I need us together on stage Kris. I can't. Otherwise. I just can't" I stutter swallowing away my tears. "it's an egotistical choice of you to run away" she frowns her eyebrow as she looks at me. "Why? Because you need me here? Because you need me to stay here?" she scoffs out. "The only one whos being egoistic now is you. You are being egotistical Idina" her voice raises and she gets up from the couch. "I really hope I would be able to tell you this in a normal way. But I already choose. I'm leaving next month" she says and with that she leaves the room leaving me behind to break down to the ground.

It feels like foreversince I wrote this but I hope you like it
Xo mel