You Learn To Live Without || Chenzel Story

50. I'm ready

IDINAS POV

It's a cold winter morning as I burst into the theatre. I greet my collegues on my way to my dressing room and let myself fall on the couch in my room. "Someone is tired?" Joby voice sounds and she comes out of my bathroom. I let out a groan before sitting up again. "I am just not feeling it today. But Kristin is coming to lunch with me and watch the show, so that makes it better" I feel my cheeks burn up and I just smile. "I'm happy that you two are back to how you used to be" she states and I look at her. "How we used to be? What do you mean" I know she is reffering to the fight we had, but I am just curious at how she saw us. "I knew you were in love before you two did. I think that answers you question" she winks and then just smiles. "I know you did, but what do you mean with how we are?" I roll my eyes at her and she just chuckles. "You're in love Dina, you love her" she simply states and hangs the dress on the clothing rack. I let out a sign. "I do love her"

"I'm just dropping by to have lunch with my girlfriend" Kristin her voice echoes through the hallway and within a few seconds the door opens. "Well are you? " I smile before getting up to kiss her lips. "Yeah Micheal from production asked if I was back" she simply states before kissing me again. "Yeah everyone misses you tho" I smile. It's been almost half a year since she left the show and people regulary mention her name. "I'm hungry are you ready?" she whines causing me to lift my eyebrow. "You are always hungry. And yes I'm ready." She just grins and takes my hand. "Joby, I'm going to lunch with Kris, do you want me to get something for you?" I state before getting out of the room. "No, but don't be late!" she warns making Kristin chuckle. "Yes mom" I roll my eyes at her and she appears from around the corner. "I'm not kidding, be back in an 2 hours" she states again but I see the grin forming up on her face. "I'll be on time" I flash her a wink and with that I walk out of the room. 

"Table for two please" Kristin speaks to the waiter behind the counter. She points us in the directions of a table close to the back of the restaurant. After we sit down we order drinks and lunch. Kristin just grabs my hand and gently strokes her thumb up and down the back of my hand. We talk a little about everything and nothing before out food arrives. "Oh Kris, I need to tell you something, before I forget" I state before taking a bite of my sandwich. She looks up at me sitting straight up. "Tell me" she says. "Joe wants me to do Wicked in London" I whisper loud enough for her to hear and her eyes shoot up to me. "He wants what?!" she nearly yells and I give her a look while shushing her. "They want to go to London with the musical and he asked me if I wanted to come with him to just start up there. Just to get the thing rolling." I look at the blonde in front of me who completely stopped eating to just stare at me. "What did you say" she states. "That I would think about it" I simply answer before taking another bite. "That's not a no? Do you want to do it? Do you think you can do it?" she starts asking causing me to chuckle. "I have to think about it Kris, but yes maybe I want to do it. I mean it would start in 2006, so that gives me enough time to occasionally rehearse it. I mean I was thinking about not renewing my contract anyway" I said it before I could think of it causing Kristin to nearly choke in her sandwich. "you were thinking about what?! When" she says between coughs. "And you were gonna talk to me about it when?" she blurts out and the crack in her voice betrays that she is hurt causing a flair of hurt to flash through my body. "I was, it just very fresh. I mean I just started thinking about it a week ago." eventhough I don't want it I feel myself going into self protection. "It's okay dee, it just suprised me" she whispers gently placing her hand on mine. "I was going to talk to Joe about it and then he came with this. So I still have to talk to him about it." I say while I take the last bite of my sandwich. "I'm sure you will figure it out" Kristin states before also finishing her last bite. I flash her a loving smile. "We will figure this out"

KRISTINS POV

I straddle idina by sitting on her lap kissing her softly.  It's half an hour after the show and we're currently on the couch of the dressing room. "I forgot how good you were on that stage. And I forgot how good you looked in green." I smile while gently stroking her freshly washed hair behind her ear. "I feel more comfortable knowing you're here though" she says slightly blushing. "You were amazing dee" I repeat again and she just looks down. I know she finds it hard to accept compliments, but I also know she is getting better at that. "Why don't we go home and just cuddle the whole night" I suggest and she looks up at me. "That sounds good" she whispers and I can see that she is tired. A knock on the door interupts and I get up to open the door. "Hi, I'm sorry to bother, but there is someone asking for you?" A blonde girl with a securtiy batch is looking from me to Idina. "Tell them that she is tired" I fire back causing Idina to get up really fast grabbing my arm protectively. "Who is it" she says flashing me a look to let me know it's okay. "It's a little girl with her father and she claims that she won something?" the girl seems to be as confused as I am, but Idina being the amazing person she is just nods. "Okay sure, do you mind to wait a second I need to talk to Joby?" she asks the girl who just nods. "Why Joby? Dina, you're exhausted. We're going home." I burst out as soon as the door closes and Idina just shushes me. "Joby, could you come for a second?" she asks completely ignoring what I just said. "Okay there is some girl that claims she won something, but I don't remember doing a give a way. But I think it might be uhm someone I know. So could you go check? For me?" she stutters while I watch her fiddle her fingers. Joby just nods and with that she leaves the room. "Idina, what are you doing?" she locks her eyes with me but within a second my eyes are focussed on her hands. I step closer to her and grab her hands to stop her from fiddling. "I think it's Walter" she whispers above breath and I just stare at her. My brain is trying to remember who Walter is, but I can't place the name. Before I can ask it Joby burst in followed by the girl from security. "I think indeed that you know them, but I said to only let them in if your ready" Joby speaks while firmly checking Idina. I remember Idina talking about the fact that Joby always knew. She didn't have to tell Joby, she just knew. Eventually she had talked about it with her, after she told me. But Joby always knew. I watch Idina slowly nod. "I'm okay" she whispers and from the corner of my eye I see the security girl say something in her in ear. She leaves the room again closing the door behind her and I snap out of my world. "Dee, let's sit down for a second" she nods again and let's me lead her to her couch. "Do you want me to be here?" I say and her eyes shoot to mine in confusion. "Ofcourse!" she fires. "I'm sorry yes please" she corrects herself and I just smile while squeezing her hand. "I'm right here" I look over to Joby who walks in from the bathroom with a glass of water. "Are you sure you want this?" she speaks but before Idina can speak there is a knock on the door. I can feel Idinas muscles thighten, but she manages to put on her game face and stand up. She looks from me to Joby and then back to me. "Come in." she says walking forwards but never letting go of my hand. The door slowly cracks open and an average man walks in followed by a smaller teenager behind him. I watch Idina making eye contact with him and then she finally let's go of my hand. She steps forwards and reaches her hand out to the man. "Hi Idina, thanks for letting us in" the man, who I assume is Walter, says while gently shaking her hand. "Thanks for coming to the show Walter" she speaks but I think only I hear the shake in her voice. He smiles and then turns to the girl behind him. "Darling, introduce yourself" he whispers gently bringing her closer. The girl seems to shake on her legs as she looks up to Idina. After a few beats she reaches her hand out and grabs Idinas. "Hi, I'm Luna. And I'm uhm" she stutters slightly looking down to the ground. "I'm your daughter" she whispers. 

A/N
I hope you all are having a good day, I've been a little sloppy with uploading, but i"m trying :) I hope y'all like the chapter and the story <3

xo Mel