You Learn To Live Without || Chenzel Story

17. flashbacks

*2 months later*

3RD PERSONS POV

The gagging sound made the young brunette shiver. It was another day of holding back her mothers hair while she was throwing up. The 10 year old was totally aware of the fact that her mother was getting sicker and sicker. And the weekly doctors appointments were not telling them otherwise. Once the older blonde woman got herself up from the ground she pulled her loving daughter against her chest. The girl starts trembling as soon she feels the familiar touch and not much later the girl breaks. While rocking the girl back and forth the girl in her arms the woman stares at the blank wall in front of her.

"Good job Luna! Momma is proud of you" the couple praises the 1 year old daughter as she pulls herself  up onto the coffeetable. The blonde woman rest her head on her husbands shoulder as she admires the bubbly girl in front of her. "She is getting so big" her husband whispers in her ear not looking away from his precious little girl. "She is"  she can feel the tears starting to flow in her eyes. "She is gorgeous" the blonde woman breathes out while she recieves a kiss on the top of her head from her husband. "She really is"

The blonde woman can't help but smile at the memory of her little girl standing on her own feet for the first time. The smile fades away as soon as she realises her little girl, her little Luna has to stand on her own soon enough. The blonde knows that the girl in her arms is strong, but no kid deserves to live like this

"I can't do it anymore. I can't look at her, she is happy right now. It's better if I don't stop by anymore. It's better if she doesn't know. She will learn to live without" the younger brunette speaks out the  words with tears in her eyes. Eventhough her eyes are focussed on the kid on the playground the look on her face is nothing more that hurt. "But... we can figure something out. She has to know eventually" the older woman stutters as she turns herself to the broken young woman next to her. She shakes her head. "No. I want her to be happy. I don't want her to suffer under the results of having a shitty birthmom. Discussion ended" a silent tears streams down the brunettes face but she angrily wipes it away. 

The blonde woman snaps out of her thoughts as she feels her daughter move in her arms. "Mommy, are you feeling better?" she speaks out wiping away her own strayed tears from her cheeks. She smiles down on her daughter while giving her a small nod. "Let's get you something to eat" causing her daughter to form a little grin on her lips. They get up from the hard bathroom ground while she takes her precious daughters hand making their way to the kitchen. "What do you want?"

KRISTINS POV

"It keeps getting more beautiful everytime" I breathe out as I let go of my taller girlfriend her hand. She gives me a smile as she puts down the basket with food. "I'm glad you like it here" she chuckles while I take in the precious view of new york at night. "The first time will alway be the most magical" I say as I make my way to kiss her lips. Idina give me a small nods before putting down the rug before placing the food on it. "Are you gonna help me or are you just gonna stare at me?" the brunette in front of me states with a grin on her face. "I'll help you eat all of this" I give her a playfull smirk before taking out the last boxes from the basket. "I wonder how you stay in this shape without working out and eating this much" she mumbles. I stick out my tongue before laying myself down on my stomach. "You know when you took me here after our first official date I felt like the most lucky girl in the world" I breathe out while moving myself closer to Idina causing her to pull me against her chest. "You never told me why this place is so special to you" I let out quietly hoping the question won't make her uncomfortable. I feel her tense a little but as soon as I put her hand into mine it fades. "Well that's a very long story" she whispers and I can sense that there is more to the story. "Care to share it?" I bring out looking up into her green eyes. She meets my eyes for a split second and gives me a soothing smile. "Well like you already know I dated Jet before he became my best friend. He was my first boyfriend and after we broke up we both went through uh... some really though stuff. " She is caressing her hand against my back as she is finding the words to continue. "One day I got very very bad news and he brought me here. We sat here for 4 hours until the sun set down and then we left. I felt peace for the first time in a long period. And now I wanted to share one of the most special places with someone who I love with my whole heart." she finishes and I can feel the tears rolling down my face as I wipe away a tear from her cheek. "That's beautiful dee, thank you for sharing that" I give her a kiss on the cheek. "Let's eat now before it gets to late" she hands me a sandwich before taking a bite on her own. We chit-chat about a lot of random stuff. I just admire her in the night light as she talks about random facts. My eyes look over every inche  of her body. Her brown hair looks magical in this lighting. Her lips are formed in a small smile as she talks about something she loves. Her hands move around while she tells the story. And my favorite part are her eyes. Her eyes sparkle when she smiles. They seem to smile with her as she giggles. The look of love when she looks at me. Admiring, loving and just her perfect green eyes.

Better late then never, but here is a new chapter xo. I'm currently on vacantion how are you doing guys?💗
Xo mel