You Learn To Live Without || Chenzel Story

11. I love you

IDINAS POV

My whole body hurts as I open my eyes. I close my eyes trying to forget what happened last night. My body freezes as I feel someone stir next to me. I let out a sigh as I see the tiny blonde her hair. Kristin. "Hi honey, how did you sleep" she whispers while sitting up. "How is your pain, do you need something?" she starts rambling and her eyes beam concern. "I'm okay kris, really thank you" I smile causing her to relax a little. "I'm sorry, I really am dee. For not being here to protect you" she looks down while picking at the bedsheets. "Hey, look at me" I say at I sit up in front of her. "It's not your fault. There was nothing that you could have done. I mean you didn't know." I wipe away a lost tear on her cheek. She give me a weak smile and I can feel a tension between us. And it's not a bad tension for the first time in 2 weeks. My face is an inch away from hers and I just look at her. Don't do it dee, you can't do it. She will run again. My mind is coming up with scenarios again when I hear someone knocking on the door. My whole body tensed at the sound and I look at kristin. She seems to get the hint and jumps out of the bed. 

KIRSTINS POV

I hurry myself to the frontdoor. Well atleast whats left of it. The minute I open the door Jet storms in. "What the hell happened, where is she?" he is fully panicing. "Jet, please calm down" I say closing the door behind me. "She is in there" pointing to her bedroom. "It was him, wasn't it?" his voice is suprisingly soft all of the sudden. I just nod and I can see him tear up. "I should've been here" his voice cracks. "Is it bad? Is she okay?" he starts pacing around the livingroom. "It's pretty bad, he hit her 4 times and kicked her 3 times before the police arrived. She slept okay last night, only woke up once. But she haven't left the room since it happened" my voice gets softer with every word I say. He looks at me and within a second I can feel him pull me into a hug. At first my body tensed but then I break. I can feel the tears falling down my face as Jet breaks the hug. His eyes are bloodshot with tears too and I give him a weak smile. "Dry your tears, she won't like it if we break because of her" I whisper putting on a weak smile. With that said we both make our way to her bedroom. Once I open the door Jet walks up to dee pulling her in the tighest hug ever. "I'm sorry I wasn't here dina. I'm so sorry" he whispers under his breath but I can still hear it. I smile and decide to give them some space. I close the door behind me and make my way to the kitchen. I open up dee her fridge and pull out some ingredients for a simple breakfast. After 15 minutes and baking some pancakes further the bedroom door swings open. I look up to see Jet come out of the room. "She is not coming out isn't she?" I say causing him to shake his head. "She is broken Kristin, I've never seen her like this." I give him a weak smile. "He has been like this before the divorce and I mean that broke her. But this is different. It's like she isn't in her own body" he looks down at his feet. I'm about to say something as I hear my phone ringing. "Kristin speaking" I say as I answer the phone not really looking who called. "Hi Kristin, where are you?" once I hear Joe his voice my mind goes shit. "Oh Joe, I'm so so so sorry. I'm at idinas place, something happened last night. I can't tell you a lot at the moment, but take it from me she won't be able to make it to stage for a few days. At least a few days until she is ready. And I will stay, I need to stay with her. She needs me Joe, please ask Eden to cover her for a while and ask Melissa to cover me for at least the time she needs me to stay." I mumble. "Okay, keep me update. I will ask Eden and Melissa. Take care of her okay?" he says. "Ofcourse I will. I lo.. really care about her" I saved myself just in time. He hangs up and I turn to Jet again. "I meant what I said to Joe, I'll take care of her. I know she has a long way to go, but she is strong" I say smiling a little to make it more believable. "I know Kristin, she is gonna hate me for saying this, but she really appreciates that you're here. She might not show it, but she really does. Take care of my girl okay, and you have my number if you need anything." And with those words he leaves the appartement. With the words he just said in my head I walk the plate with breakfast to the bedroom. I carefully push the door with my foot to find dee on her back staring at the ceiling. "Dee honey, here eat some breakfast." I say as I put down the plate. She turns her head to me and gives me a weak smile before sitting up. She crosses her legs and takes the pancake of the plate.

IDINAS POV

I watch Kristin eat her breakfast in silence. She looks stunning. No make-up, her hair pulled up in a bun and a slightly overside shirt that is mine. I can get used to this view in the morning. Her waking up next to me. Us eating breakfast together. My mind goes to Jet. I hope he didn't say anything to her. Not more than I wanted her to know. "you should tell her, tell her you love her" he said when kristin left us two alone for a little while. I just stared at him and shaked my head. "I don't wanna ruin it again. I'm winning her back as my friend I can't screw up again. I can't loose her" I whispered looking down at my own hands. He puts his finger under my chin and lifts up my head making our eyes meet. "She deserves to know Dina. I'm pretty sure the feeling is mutual since I can see both of you looking at eachother. It's that look again." he smiles at me while pressing his lips on my cheek. "Dee? Are you okay" I snap out of my thoughts to Kristin looking at me concerned. "Hm yeah, i'm okay" I smile making her body relax a little bit. "Joe called" she claims and I look up. "I took care of it, I didn't spill anything and I told him I'm staying with you till you need it" she smiles and takes my hand. I move myself next to her and lean my head on her shoulder. She pulls her around my waist and caresses her thumb up and down the back of my hand. "I love you kris" I whisper and i can see her smile from the corner of my eye. "I love you too honey" she breathes out staring in front of her. She probably slept bad because her mind was drifting. And is probably because if me. "Kris?" I say as I sit up. "Hmm" she mutters. "The day I kissed you and you walked out.." once I mention the moment from two weeks ago she turns her head. I have her attention. "I.. Uh.. I don't know how to say it, so i'm just gonna say it." she nods nervously. "I did meant that, I meant that kiss. I actually love you kris, and I know it was stupid for me to kiss you that night. But it happened and I hated what happened to us after. I hated being apart from you the last two weeks. When Ta.. when he hit me all I could think of was leaving you behind. I tried calling Jet before it happened but I got his voicemail. I tried calling you after calling the police. But I was to late because he was there before I could press your speeddail. When he hit me all I thought was cuddling you to ease the pain. I thought of you kris, because I love you. I love you so much you take a piece of me every time you leave. I love watching you come on stage in the bubble from the side wing. I love our little moments on stage and I love us hanging out in my dressingroom. I love... uh.. I love you" I end up up with my voice being barely audible and looking down at my hands. She cups her hands against my face and looks me in the eyes while wiping away my tears. She leans in and her soft lips connect with me. After breaking off the kiss I can see the tears in her eyes. "I love you to dee" she whispers and she connects her lips with mine again. 

Some soft chenzel to end or begin (kuch kuch timezones) your day with👉👈
Xo mel