You Learn To Live Without || Chenzel Story

38. together

KRISTINS POV

It's not the first time I skip multiple trafic light to rush to Idina, but this time the hospital is involved which makes it a worse case. My mind flashes back to the last time after her assault over a year ago. The thing that started all of this in the first place. The anxiety, the calming pills and the therapy. But I never thought she would get hurt more because of it. After 20 minutes I drive my car into the garage and rush myself up the stairs. "Idina Menzels room please" I bring out while leaning against the desk trying to control my breath. "Room 13B on the 4th floor" the woman states giving a short look from her computer. I nod and rush myself to the elevator. "come on go faster" I mumble to myself while waiting for the elevator to get to the 4th floor. I get out and walk over to the B wing of the hospital. "Kristin?" I look up to meet Caras red puffy eyes. "Cara, hi" I let out embracing the younger woman. "Did you call your mom?" I ask to break the akward silence . SHe just nods and looks down at her fingers. "I told her it wasn't necessarily to fly over. She didn't like it but I told her Dee needed rest" the brunette whispers. "Can I see her?" I'm almost afraid to ask but Cara nods her head before pointing to the closed door. "Do you want to come?" I ask looking at her. She shakes her head. "I need to call my boys" she gives me a little smile before I turn around to walk in the room. My mood drastically drops when my eye falls on the women in the bed. The brunette I fell in love with is there, but she does not look like herself. Her head is wrapped in a bandage to protect the wound and her body is attached to machines to monitor her breathing activity. "Oh dee what did you get yourself into?" I let out a soft whisper before sitting down next to her. I gently take her hand and stroke my thumb up and down. "Please be okay"

LUNAS POV

"Luna darling come here please" my dads voice echoes through the hallway. I put down my homework and walk downstairs to the livingroom to find my dad sitting in his chair. He is holding some papers in a map causing me to look at him. "Sit down darling" he gives me a small smile and I sit myself on the sofa. "What is it dad?" the hesitation in my voice is not totally under control. He clears his throat and looks up to me. "I am sick" he says dropping the bomb on me. My eyes shoot up locking with his eyes. "no" I state knowing my voice will start trembling if I bring out more words. The tears poke behind my eyes and I look at my dad. "You remember the bump I had on the back of my calf?" he whispers and I give him a weak nod. "The doctor find out that it is an agressive tumor. Just like momma did only less noticable, that's why it got so big." I look him in the eyes and I see him trying to hold back his tears. "But how?" my voice stutters and I can't hold back the tears anymore. "I went to my yearly check up and I mentioned the bump and that's when they got suspicious." he says looking at the paper in his hand. "how long do you know?" I whisper looking down at my own hands. "3 days" he brings out causing my eyes to shoot up to him. "And you are telling me this now" I suddenly burst out causing my dad to jump. The silent tears had turn into tears streaming down my face and I stare at him. "honey.." he stutters but I break him off. "I lost momma not even 5 months ago and now I'm going to loose you too." I manage to bring out while trembling on my own feet. I turn around to walk out of the room but I feel two big strong arms grabbing me and pulling me close and in that moment I completely break.

KRISTINS POV

I look up from the bed when I hear the door open. Cara appears in the doorway giving me a small smile. "are you sure you don't want to take a stroll for a little bit? you've been here for almost 9 hours." she says resting her hand on my shoulder. I look back at the brunette in the bed and shake my head. "I'm not leaving her again" I whisper barely above my breathe. "It's not your fault Kristin" she brings out while sitting in the chair next to me and putting her hand on my knee. "but what if it is?" I whisper without looking away from Idina. Cara moves the chair closer to me and grabs my hand. "When she called me I told her to call me back because I had to pick my boys from school. I straight up told her that I actually had no time for her. Her voice trembled and then I realised something was wrong. Because you know as good maybe even better how amazing she got at hiding her feelings and her anxiety. Whenever she cries or breaks it is really bad." I nod weakly not really knowing where she is going. "she called me because she needed help. And I was scared. I was really scared that she was about to hurt herself and I couldn't do anything about it. I was absolutly terrified that she would black out again. But she insisted me to stop worrying. She even laughed and told me 'kristin would have come and personally killed me if I would hurt myself' She got emotional as soon as she mentioned your name, because she misses you like crazy. I'm not even going to bother you with all the calls about how much it hurts to be apart from you, but she kept telling me that it was for the better. Because even though it hurts like hell she wants you to be happy. Because that is what you deserve." I blink away the tears in my eyes but fail miserably as I feel them falling down my cheeks. "What my point is it was an accident. We don't know what triggered her and made her need her pills. It was probably her sloppy brain that forgot how many she took and yet again I think she needs help with that but thats not the point'. The point is that she would not want us to blame ourselfs, she would not want you to blame yourself. Because she is going to be fine, she will wake up and she will get better." the last words come out with a little bit hesitation but she gives me a weak smile. "she has to be. She can't leave me like this, we're not finished. I have so much to tell her. And I... I... I feel so selfish telling her that now when I'm not even sure if she can hear me. There are so many things she has to know and so many things I want to share with her. I made a selfish choice when I left her. It was my selfish deciscion to leave her. And the worst thing is I knew I broke her, I straight up told her that she was back at her lowest, because her walls were up again. I told her that we needed to find the reason I fell in love with her. I needed time, but the thing is.. I.. uh.. I never fell out of love. I lied.." I roughly get interrupted by the alarming osund of the monitors. Within a second nurses and doctors are rushing into the room pushing me and cara back. Cara her hand is clamped in my hand and all of the sudden the strong woman that sat next to me a second ago turned into this terrified puppy. The terror in her eyes as the doctors are surrounding her sister is the complete opposite. "Take her off the monitors it's time for her to breathe on her own" the female doctors voice sounds through the room causing Cara to look at me. "She is breathing?" is my reaction and I get a simple yes from one of the nurses. The chaos fades and one of the nurses turns to us. "We need to wait for her to actually wake up, but she is going to be fine" she gives a ressuring smile and I can feel the lumb in my throat dissapear. "She is going to be fine"

IDINAS POV

The sound of muffled voices sound around the room making me dizzy. "I'm going to get something, do you want to come?" is sounds a lot like my sisters voice but muffled. "no I want to be with her" a even softer voice answers. She is probably whispering and her voice sounds cracked like she had been crying. "Can I at least get you something. You haven't moved in 10 hours" now I'm certain that the voice is my sisters. She flew over for me. "I'm not hungry" then suddenly it hits me. Kristin, she is here. She is not hungry? That's new. "I'll bring a sandwich" Cara states and then I hear her walking away. Open your eyes Idina, it's not that hard. I feel someone grabbing my hand and caressing a thumb up and down. Kristin, only her touch is like that. "Please Dee, wake up" her voice is not muffled anymore. "I need you, we can work this out. Together" her voice cracks again and if I'm not crazy I can feel a tear falling on my hand. Open your god damn eyes Idina, do it for her. Open them, wake up. Suddenly I see the bright white hospital lights and I let out a soft groan. "Dee?!" Kristin her bloodshot eyes lock with mine and she look at me like she has seen a ghost. I open my mouth to say something but she shushes me. "Wait I need to get a doctor, I need to get cara, I need.." she jumps up from the chair and presses a buttom while bringing her phone to her ear to call cara but in that moment she just walks in. As soon as she sees me the color in her face dissapears. "dina" she lets out and her eyes tears up. She runs over to me and pulls me in a hug causing me to let out a painful groan. "sorry, I'm just.. I love you" she stutters and after that I see some doctor and nurses walk inside. They rush over to me and get their hands all over me to test me making me feel incredibly uncomfortable. "Welcome back Miss Menzel" one of the nurses smiles as they finish up. The doctor turns to Kristin and Cara discussing something. Cara turns to kristin telling her something causing kristin to wrinkle but nods weakly after that. With that said Cara leaves the room with the nurses and doctor leaving me and Kristin alone. "How long was I in coma?" Kristin seems suprised by the sudden sound and she startles. "4 days" she speaks as she sits down on the chair again. "What about the show?" she looks up to me. "I called Joe" is her short answer while she looks down at her hands. "I'm not death you know, can you at least be a little more.. you know.. like you" my voice is suddenly barely audible and I fight back the tears. She doesn't react and that creates an uncomfortable silence. "I'm sorry dee. I'm so sorry for everything" she says after a while and looks up with tears in her eyes. "I.. we should.. I made a selfish choice.." she stutters. "Kris" I breathe out. "no, you deserved so much better. I left you.." she starts and I reach out to her hand. She doubtfully takes it and I give her a little squeeze. "We will figure it out" I whisper with tears in my eyes. "Together" I let out while locking my eyes with hers. "Together"

A/N

Hi lads, I hope you had a great and safe new years. New year, new chances.
Hope you like this chapter! 
Xo Mel