You and Me, Forever

If I Can't Have You [3]

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The song has been an absolute smash. It's everywhere, the streams never stop and the views on the video are rocketing to the sky. This is all people have been talking about everywhere Shawn is going and he is extremely thankful this milestone has come in his life, but it's all bittersweet.

A few days after Camila's visit he kind of started regretting putting the song out because now everything reminds him of her and how it all ended. He mastered his fake smile so he could look like he was genuinely happy for the song every time someone brought it up, while on the inside he was just... empty.

He cut all information off from Camila, making sure she doesn't pop up anywhere on his phone. Though blocking her number felt too much he did delete her messages and changed the settings on Instagram so her posts and stories wouldn't be shown on his feed. He felt pity for doing all these but he also knew he needed to distance himself if he wanted to get himself over it.

It has been three entire weeks since their last intercourse and he can finally say she is not in his every second thought. Just about the fourth.

He figured out he should keep himself busy, so he has been hitting the gym twice as often as he used to and made sure to have a studio session anytime he has free time in his schedule. He leaves home early and doesn't return at least until midnight, giving himself no time to cry after her.

It's Friday night, the first day in weeks his friends managed to get him out and just let loose. They all thought he is just busy in a normal way, most of them didn't think there might be more behind his hectic work days and he intended to keep his struggles to himself.

Cez and Teddy are sitting on each of his sides while Brian arrives with the first round of beers placing down the tray to the table.

"I'm surprised you didn't spill them," Shawn teases him, earning a grimace from him. He slides into the booth as well as they all get their drinks.

"Cheers to new music and the millions of streams If I Can't Have You is getting right now, as we speak!" Cez raises his drink solemnly and soon the glasses clink in the middle.

"Will we ever celebrate something else?" Shawn asks with a nervous laugh taking a sip from the cold brew.

"Once you have another hit we'll drink to that," Brian points out, making Shawn roll his eyes. "What? I thought it's a huge thing to you too," he then adds, getting suspicious of his bitter mood.

"It is."

"Then what's the problem?"

He opens his mouth, but Teddy speaks up faster.

"Is it about her?" she asks, making all three of them turn to her, Cez and Brian in confusion while Shawn kind of scared of what she'll say about it.

"Her? Who are we talking about?" Brian questions, feeling left out.

"Brian, use your brain," Teddy gives him a look. "The girl the song is about, obviously!"

Brian's lips form an o shape as he comes to realization, but then he goes back to confusion since he doesn't know who the girl is.

"Okay, but who is she exactly?"

Shawn hesitates whether he wants them to know or not. He wanted to keep it low even when things didn't turn bad, because he kind of wanted her all to himself. Sounds crazy, but he didn't want to share her just yet.

"You remember Camila? You met her once at my place," he finally reveals. Brian furrows his eyebrows searching through his memories before her face pops up in his mind.