You and Me, Forever

Dreams

I'm so sorry...

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"Hi, love. Uhh I really miss you today. Well I miss you everyday but today especially. I was calling to say that I love you a lot and I wish you were here more than anything." Shawn spoke into the phone. It was a traditional thing, every night he'd call Camila's phone. She'd never call back. He still couldn't believe she was gone. And there was nothing he could do.

All he wished was he could go back, to stop her from leaving. Then maybe she wouldn't have got hit by that drunk driver. Then she'd still be here. His heart wouldn't have had to get so broken.

The tears began to fall as he thought of the life they were meant to have together. They were going to go on vacation, to Hawaii. They were going to get married and have a wedding in the spring so their flowers would be cherry blossoms. They were going to have kids, 3 of them a boy and then two girls.

He picked up the phone and thought about calling her again, there wouldn't be much point. It wasn't like she could hear it. Plus his physiologist said he could call her once. Just so he didn't get too upset like last time.

That was the time he almost ended it all. For love. But he couldn't go and do that. While he had so much reason to not be alive he also had reason to be alive. His sister, his friends, his mom and not much else. He would never said Camila was worth more to him then everyone else but she was his soulmate.

Suddenly he was up and going over to the drinks cabinet. Maybe getting drunk would help he figured.

By the time his head was spinning and he couldn't stand up right or think about her, he fell asleep. Right there on the couch, almost thinking Camila would wake him up like she used to when he'd been out clubbing. He should have spent more time with her. He should have known she was too pure to spend much time in this world.

And as soon as he fell asleep, there she was