You and Me, Forever

---Confusion and Confessions [2]

SHAWN'S POV

Oh my god.

I kissed her. I kissed her. I kissed her. I fucking kissed her!

WHAT WERE YOU THINKING SHAWN?

It felt amazing.

Her lips. God, those perfect lips.

The way I always imagined them into mine.

What kind of feeling would they bring to me. How would they taste. The thought of it makes my heart melt every single time.

And here I am, kissing her.

I should have not done that because I did not want to speed things up. I love her with all my heart and don't want to force her on anything.

But I was so caught in the moment that I did not think about anything else but only the both of us. I knew it.

Since we started the rehearsal, I knew I would not be able to contain myself but to kiss her. I needed to feel her in some type of way.

I could not help myself but moved my right hand to her neck, slightly squeezing it while the other one rested on her waist.

She moaned quietly and softly into the kiss.

Holy mother of God.

This sound drove me crazy.

She ran her fingers through my hair, tugging at them.

I was going literally crazy. She was driving me crazy.

I was running out of breath and needed oxygen. I knew she was too.

We pulled away from each other. Our foreheads resting against each other as we breathed in and out.

That's when it hit me. Fuck.

I must have been ruin everything. I messed up.

Congratulations, man. You messed up your solid and incredible friendship with her just for a stupid kiss Shawn.

You should have contained yourself.

Thoughtless and dumb. That's what you are for doing this.

I looked at her deep in the eyes and opened my mouth and was about to apologize and tell her that I am such a bad friend for this but she put her finger on my lips, signaling me to shut up.

"Shh. Don't speak. No. Don't try." She warned.

"But Camila-" I told her and she cut me off.

"Shawn. Please. Don't try. Can we just talk about it later because everyone is waiting for us." She said, releasing her finger and letting go of me.

"Oh- huh.. Yeah right." I muttered.I had a feeling of guilt.

She must not see me like before. She must hate me. She probably won't want to talk to me anymore.

What did I do? Ugh!

"Shawn! Let's go!" She exclaimed.

I came back to reality.

"Coming !" I replied.

We walked back to the dance hall to see Sinu, Sara, Calvit and the others.

5 hours later at Shawn's place

CAMILA'S POV

"So....what do you wanna do?" I said. "I mean we can talk or watch a movie," Shawn said.

"I'd rather talk right now," I said. "Can we talk about what happened before?" I suggested. He started getting nervous. "Um...sure."

"Do you have feelings for me?" I asked. "Um... "Y-yes but-"

I cut him off "When did you start having feelings for me, Shawn?"

"That's a big question...um...I think I started crushing on you on the Austin Mahone tour. I liked you, but you were with Austin. And I guess our timing never worked. But uh, once we wrote IKWYDLS...my feelings got stronger for you. Every night when we performed IKWYDLS...my feelings changed into something more. I never knew that you would feel the same way. When you told me that you found someone, I was gonna tell you that I love you. I was going to fly to New York and tell you that I love you. It never worked since you were caught up with someone else. Here we are now..."

Wow...that long. It's gonna take me some time to process this.

"I'm sorry for telling you now. When we saw each other at the VMAs last year...remember when I told you that I had lost feelings? I didn't. They were still there. I had to lie to you so I could still talk to you. And I told you I was in love with you in 2017...and I'm sorry for ruining our friendship."

It was my turn to talk.

"I fell in love with you ever since you told me that I was one of the happiest things that ever happened to you...I fell in love with you when you held me so tight. I fell in love with you when you hugged me close when I was scared. I fell in love with you when we had our first kiss backstage. I fell in love with a boy who had my back since 2014. When you told me you were in love with me, I was mad. I didn't get why you told me while I was dating someone. I was pissed. It took you all these years to say it, but you said it while I was in a relationship. I didn't know what to say to my best friend. I had feelings for you back then...and they're back now."

That was a hell of a lot of talking coming out of me.

Shawn got closer to me. He just stared into my eyes. Like he was looking into my soul.

"I can't express how I am so lucky to be able to kiss you right now," he said softly. "Kiss me," I whispered.And so he did. He kissed me so soft and so slow. The slower he went, the faster my heartbeat was.

We parted away and I put my hand on his cheek. I just stared for what was like a minute. Just him and I. No one else.

He leaned closer again. And he brought his lips to mine. Closer and closer.

"Are you sure you feel the same way?" He said. I looked at him...why would he say that?" I grabbed his face and put my lips on his. Pulling his body closer to mine.

"I love you," I said during the kiss.

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