Lost in the woods:A Silmarillion fanfic

A talk

Maedhros yelled so loud i think even Sanya heard him from where she was.

Fingon went outside looking sad and amgry the same time.

"Are you okay? Where you going?" I asked him.

"To find my fame! " He said and dissapered.

"What the heck happened here?!" I monologued. It was a horrible idea to go in. But i had to take care of the beast inside. Especially after what happened. I took a breath and I went in carefully.

"Leave me alone" Maedhros groaned looking at the opposite direction.

"Ahm...i wish i could but i can't"

"Please. Do i ask too much?"

" .."

"Leave me alone to die"

I didn't say anything again.

"Please!"

"..."

"Just leave!"

"..."

He looked tired of yelling and he just fall back to his mountain of pillows groaning.

I stayed there looking at him. It was not the time to leave nor to speak.
I was afraid if i spoke then and went angry with ne too he wouldn't see me again nor Fingon. And we was the only people now to recognise them.

I waited silent untill i saw he look enough calm to ask him. I had to.

"Why did you speak to Fingon like that? He is your friend!"

"He was! No he isn't! Not after what he did to me!"

"He saved you!"

"He didn't save me! If he wanted to save me he had to kill ke! To end my torture! "

"He didn't think like that.."

"He had to! Now I'll stuck like this forever! Is not this the greatest punishment you can take from your loved one?I know he wanted revenge because we abandon them in the cold in the morth of Araman! And he did this to me! To take his blood back and gain fame!"

"That's not the true reason! He didn't wanted revenge! If he wanted revenge he could take it with other way!"

" What way!?"

"That's not the problem now! No matter what happened you have to surpass it! Don't look back to your past! That what Fingon did to come and save you! He didn't mind the cold and death they saw! He didn't stay here but he faced the death again for his friend!"

" That what you think! Even jlhe saved me some scars can't be healed in any way.."

"Then? What scars do? Fade? Maybe some scars can't be forgotten at all!  But they stay to remember what did you bore all this time what you passed and lived! There not just scars !There signs of our strength! You can overcome these!"

"Can I ? Can I !? Did Fingon ask me if i can? I have the power to forget everything?! To forget the pain, the loss all this nightmares i saw?! "

"I know it's difficult but that's why he wanted to stay by your side to help you! Because that's what friends do!"

"I don't want his help! I don't want any of your help! I just want this to be over! To die!"

"And you think in that way every problem will be solved?! Your family matters can't be solved by your death !You have to change!"

"To change what? My fate?"

"Yes your fate!"

"Do you offer me a knife to do this?"

"Not in this way! You can change your fate when you'll change yourself!"

"And how could i change? I can't be the warrior i was nor a King! Im useless now!"

"You lost only one hand! You can use your left one! The side where your heart is! In your heart your still being a warrior and a King! I know it, Fingon knows it! The first time we met you're just like your father! Almost! Stubborn, determined, bold :a leader! But you're different the same time!Maybe I didn't like your mamners or character then ,but I can't see you like that complaining about everything! Show me the King you were!"

"The king I was is gone!Is not just the scars !! Is everything I saw and I know! The oath!"

"The oath you took was when you're different.  If change your mind then.."

"Then what? Morgoth will give us back what he took? It's more difficult as it seems!"

"And you're difficult too to make you understand! Because you're stubborn! And I'll stay here untill you'll change your mind!"

"You have not the patience to do that mortal!"

"I'm more stubborn than you think and I have plenty of time. So I'll stay. Even if this will take a whole century!" I lied.

He couldn't stay like that. He had not to stay like that. I was angry with hum after what he said to Fingon . He was too stubborn to understand what i was trying to say! And for that reason i couldn't step back. I had to teach some manners to him. One not disturbing Feanorian more it was what everyone wished for.

"Noone wants to stay with me because noone can bear me! Even Fingon left"

"Its time to show you then what humans are capable of!"

To be continued...✳️