Just Maybe, (Squad Series #1)

Chapter 9

I knew you were trouble when you walked in.
I Knew You Were Trouble// Taylor Swift

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It's been two weeks since that awkward incident with Eros.

Aaminin kong hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa 'rin talaga ako naniniwala. I mean, how can he like someone like me? I just came from a heartbreak. And i'm sure he knows that confessing to me is like giving me an access to use him. But I won't. I'm not like that.

Hanggang sa matapos kaming kumain at maihatid niya ako sa bahay ay hindi ko siya nagawang kausapin. Talagang pagtango lamang ang nagawa ko maging noong nagpaalam siya na uuwi na ng Manila.

He also kept on texting me and of course i'm answering him. Iyon nga lang at hindi ako nag eeffort na pahabain iyong topic since ramdam ko naman iyong flirty advances niya. I don't want to lead him on so i'm doing everything to make him feel that I see him only as a friend.

Oo, sige, aaminin ko. I'm attracted to him. Gustong gusto ko siya na umaabot na sa puntong natatakot na 'rin ako. One reason is because I just met him recently. Ni hindi pa nga kami ganoong nagkakasama. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit parang kuhang kuha niya agad ang atensyon ko sa dalawang beses naming pagh-hang out.

But that's not really it. Ang pinakarason kung bakit ayaw kong mas magkaroon ng koneksyon sa kaniya ay dahil natatakot ako. I know very well that a guy like him is dangerous. He's literally a walking demigod so I am kind of doubting his intentions.

I'm sure that a guy like him only wants to play around. He's 18 yet already setting his name in the industry. Malabong naghahanap na agad siya ng seryosong relasyon.

At ako 'rin naman. I'm literally just 17 and love is not my priority. Hindi naman ako santo, dumaan na 'rin ako sa parte na naglaro ako. Isang patunay na noon si Jack. And there's more aside from him but that's in the past. Kung may darating naman kasi na mamahalin ko talaga at maiisip na pangmatagalan na, then i'll accept it. Medyo nagmamature na 'rin naman ang pag iisip ko kahit kaunti.

C Entertainment. Doon ko siya unang nakilala. Jack was a freelance model and dancer there kaya naman noong mga panahon na fling ko pa siya ay nakarating na ako doon. That is also where I met his Older sister and became close to her. Ate Ashley is also a trainee there. Hindi ko lang alam kung magiging idol siya o artista. She's really kind to me kaya nga kahit na noong napagdesisyonan na namin ni Jack na maging magkaibigan na lamang ay nanatili pa 'rin iyong closeness namin.

Habang naroon ay naririnig ko 'rin ang matunog na pangalan ng model na si Eros Marasigan. He's 16 that time and yet he's already too attractive. Napakagwapo niyang talaga sa mga litrato doon sa agency nila na nakapaskil sa pader.

Doon ko unang nasabi na attracted ako sa kaniya. I've always thought that it's fine until I found out that he was in the same social circle as mine. Mula noon ay dumistansya na ako sa kaniya bagamat hindi pa siya nakikita ng personal.

I was doing good until that bastard ex fling of mine under the name of Jack Gonzales did something that night which put me in this situation. Lintik talagang lalaki iyon! Pinahamak na naman ako.

Meeting him only made me realize that I really am attracted to him from the very start. Hindi pa nakatulong na kagagaling ko lamang sa heartbreak kaya magulo ang pag iisip ko. Damn! How can I forget our first encounter when I almost gave in to him?