Desire for Love | Desire Series ~ 2

Chapter 14

Matthias POV

Waking up with a massive headache and nausea sucks. Or that's what I thought I would be feeling as soon as I open my eyes. There is no pain. That is surprising. I guess what Demetrius gave me helped a lot. I will have to endure it for a day or two since Daniel will surely take his sweet time to come here. We are mates, but it is not like we love each other or anything.

Tired of being laid down, I try to sit up, but my arms will just not work as I want to. When I finally succeed after a few tries, I notice a red tube going into my arm. I follow it with my gaze and see a blood bag attached on the other end on a metallic hanger. When I finally realize what's going on, I look around the room and notice a man sitting on a chair next to my bed. He is softly snoring while leaning his head on his fist. For some reason, I get butterflies in my stomach.

Did I fell asleep for a few days? Why did he come? Why does he start acting like he cares about me now? We obviously don't like each other. Before I know it, tears are falling down my cheeks as I rapidly wipe them off.

"You're awake," I state when Daniel starts to stir around. I don't know how long I sat there, but my body is just numb.

"How are you feeling?" he asks after yawning and stretching his arms and legs.

"Better thanks to you," I answer before leaning my head on the pillow.

He nods while staring at his hands as if he is lost in his thoughts. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"What do you mean?"

"Don't play dumb. You know what I mean," he says angrily as I sigh. "And don't tell me it doesn't concern me. I drove here as soon as I received a call saying that you were ill. You could have died and I'm your mate."

"In title only. We don't like each other," I answer without missing a beat as I notice him curl his hands into a fist.

"Cut this bullshit! It was your idea. What do you want me to do? Rip your clothes off and sleep with you until you magically love me? You can't start anything and stop midway. It doesn't work like this."

I'm not going back on my words. I just feel like everything goes too fast. It's so hard to accept that I'm actually willing to be with a werewolf. I can't completely trust him no matter how hard I try. I have been taught at a very young age that we can't put our trust in them. I know that I can't generalize them all, but old habits die hard.

"This won't be as simple. People will not accept us," I mutter not able to look at him in the eyes.

"Are you in this for yourself or the others?" Daniel asks in annoyance before sighing in exasperation. "Look, if you don't want this tell me now. I'll not waste any more energy for a relationship that will go nowhere."

Is this for the best? Should we just end it here? I don't want to, but it won't be easy. He doesn't even know the changes that will occur if we actually get serious. It won't only change the view people have on him, but also his perception of life. He will never be the same man ever again.

"There are so many things that you don't know," I blurt out while shaking my head in worry.

"Then, tell me. I have all day."

I take a deep breath and nod. "Alright, if you insist. But don't come and regret it later."

After that, the atmosphere stayed tense between us. It will be better if he can get the information from someone who has the answers to his questions. So, we had to wait for Demetrius to come back.

In the meantime, I somehow fell asleep once more, and I am grateful for it. It is becoming so awkward to have staring contests and a few one-way conversations. After that fight, I think we took three steps back when we only moved one step forward in the beginning. We are back to step one. This is not good for what it is to come.