Male reader x missy (editing cos I'm dumb:))

Nothing

"Missy! Wait please Missy hold up" you called after her coming to a fast hault couple of steps behind her as she stops suddenly, letting out a loud sigh, you could see her shoulders falling out of her tense stance to turn to face you, however, her body was still closed off as she grips the pushchairs handles with her white knuckles, small hairs on her arms raising up in tiny bumps across her skin due to her exposure to the chill. You jacket had been lazily thrown across one of the handles of the pram. Her expression was emotionless with made you carry on letting out a groan. "Can we just-." You tried coming to no avail.

"Forgotten! Just open the door already, incubus is tired" she grumbles rolling her eyes and facing back to the tardis, who hums in response calling you to open her up. You take the keys between your fingers and push it into the lock with urgency making the time lady push past your shoulders taking the child to where you could only assume was the bedroom. The others caught up waiting for you to enter but you were stuck facing the woman's shadow enter the corridor and vanish from your sight, you really felt yourself losing the blue eyed beauty.

Yaz took her hands and gripped your shoulders pushing you into the console room and letting herself and the others enter as well before Graham closed the door behind you all. Graham nudged Yaz to say something probably because his self didn't know what to do. She let out a small huff watching Ryan shrug his shoulders unsure what to do as well, he stoves his hands into the pockets of his jacket.

You just stood frozen, "hey guys it's fine, head to bed" you spoke small finding it hard to find your voice. You couldn't even bear to look at them. They understood and walked off, Ryan giving you a lingering hand on your shoulder, letting his grip give you a small squeeze.

"Goodnight y/n"

"Yeah goodnight mate" Graham smiled ruffling your hair slightly before letting his hand fall back down to his side. You let out a small chuckle but let your frown escape back onto your face soon after they left.

You let out a loud sigh in the now empty room-

"Don't you start!" You groaned in response to the tardis him letting out a blue light fall into the room. Making it more gloomy, you had noticed the change of the console and somewhat reassembled the old Scottish Doctor that you had came to love a while back. Although like his scattered brain the books werent taking up the room instead it was clean which made you fall to your knees instantly missing the certain time lord whatever face and their ability to make every room messy.

You felt the cold metal under your knees but it was the least of your worries as you glare over to the open corridor with your eyes slightly watering in the now dead silence in the room. Even the tardis was too scared to speak up leaving you alone to collect your depressing thoughts. Why couldn't I just keep my mouth shut? You asked yourself closing your eyes and letting the single tear fall delicately down your face.

You stayed still for a while still hoping that she would come prancing down the corridor with her famous smirk, her eyes to instantly lock with yours as her feet guided her into your arms but the best that the empty room could give you was a low hum causing you to rise to your feet, you opened your eyes taking in the small single dim light flicking in the corridor.

You sighed, you might as well sleep you thought but it became increasingly hard to find your room. "Your doing this on purpose" you whispered yelled out to the tardis not finding your way to your room, the doors disappearing before your eyes expect one.

You took a glance at the door infront of you and reached out to take it obviously knowing that the tardis wouldn't stop until she got what she wanted. Your hand hovered over the brass door knob recognising the door from the small wooden indent in its frame. "Why here?" You asked opening it and welcoming the dim light from the room, the small bed lamp still on making it easier to see the figure snuggled up in the sheets, her lips only opening to take small breathes in and out without fail. Her eyes where shut close and she was lost in a slumber, her brown hair washing over her face as she slept.

"Yaz" you spoke under your breath, closing the door too behind you as you slowly enter taking a look around the doctors room. The tardises seemed connected to everyone's grief giving the same design of the doctors room that you've seen before on her own ship that was still out there somewhere- somewhen, wherever you would hope the doctor was too. Your frowned deepened seeing the puffy cheeks on the human wrapped in the yellow bedsheet. A deep red occupied her eyelids from what you could only assume was her rubbing her tears away. You glanced down finding it harder to watch her you walked out not bothering to look back as she stirred in her sleep dreaming about her blonde doctor.

Closing the door you were welcomed to the more organised layout of the corridor, you spotted the boys bedrooms on one side then your own on the other, however, yours and Ryan's door were the only ones that was fully shut. curiosity getting the best of you, you approached hearing small voices coming from Graham's room, both of which you knew too well.

"Grandad, do you really think we're find the doctor?" Ryan asked speaking quietly.

"You know what? I believe we will because we've got y/n. He won't give up on her and neither will we" he spoke with such emotion, which only made it all to real to you.

You bursted into your room making sure they didn't hear you. You stood tall as your eyes came up to Missy's figure sat on the bed not facing you, her hair was down and she was now in a purple dressing gown. god did she look beautiful. Her red lipstick was smudged slightly below her lips as they breathed in deeply at your entrance, she played with her fingers in her lap. "You're brave" she remarked turning to face you with a scowl but it fell quickly as she saw your tears stream down your face at great speeds. "What the hell is wrong?!" She yelled rushing into her feet and quickly moving infront of you were she places her hands on each shoulder whilst your eyes decided to stick to the floor letting the small drops sink into the carpet below.

"I did this" you sobbed taking your hand to cover the loud sounds that were escaping your mouth.

"Your not making sense my dear" she stated shaking you slightly to gain your attention. You looked up and instantly found yourself lost in her eyes, she was worried immensely taking the pad of her thumb to wipe away stray tears 

"I lost the doctor, I lost everyone, everything, they trust me Missy, they think I can find her" you started taking in a large breath to calm yourself down letting your hands fall to your side into a slumped position.

"You will, we haven't even-."

You shook your head rapid, moving backwards causing her arms to fling back down to her sides which causes her to frown. "I have. Missy I there's no trace of her, her tardis is god knows where, I tried everything-DNA tracing, river, her diary- there's nothing about her in there! I've asked around, I know nothing- I DONT EVEN KNOW HER." You scoffed loudly facing the door and punching it harshly making the time lady jump behind you. You let out a small chuckle closing your eyes and leaning your forehead against the wood. "Am new to this, I found the doctor once Missy- it was my life goal to find them and I'm right back at the start, they don't need me, they need someone.... someone who actually knows the woman." You sighed softly feeling Missy's arms snake around you waist to hold you as you continued to fill the room with quiet sobs and heavy breathing.