No One Know (No One Series #III)

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Prologue

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"It's beautiful. . ."

The sounds of the sea were so relaxing. The sunset isn't painful to the eyes. Fresh air. Quiet place. It's a very good place to be. A paradise. Maybe this is what I really need. A vacation and a good place.

It's been years but I can't help myself to think about her every time I see a peaceful place like this. So simple. Natural but beautiful. . .That's what she is. . . so simple but can captivate all attentions.

I know. If she's here, she will be happy. She will happily paint this beautiful scenery, and I will guide. . . or maybe just watch her. We will eat and dance at night. Talking. . . drinking, or maybe planning for our future while watching the night skies.

This is the place that she wants. I'm sure she would want to make this paradise as her home. . . Our home. I would gladly live here with her.

She's my life. . . And I'm stupid. I know, it's my fault. Everything is my fault. I deserve this.Masakit. Sobra. Araw araw kong tinatanong ang sarili ko kung bakit kailangan umabot sa ganito?

I love her. . .I love her so much but why I didn't keep her? I am the first one who gives up our relationship. . .I am the one who leave first but why It feel so hurt?

I wanted to ask myself why I didn't listen? Why I didn't give her a chance to talk? Maybe I was not hurting like this. . . maybe I can still smile, and live the life that we dream of when we're still young.

Every day, I felt like that I was just leaving for money, for business, and for my family but not for myself. I felt like I was already dead, alive but not alive.

I wanted to find her but I know that it was impossible. . . I wouldn't see her anymore. Even though I traveled the world, she was gone.

"Bakit? Bakit pinabayaan mo siya?!" Wala akong maisagot.

"Bakit pinabayaan mong mag-isa ang pamangkin ko!?"

"Ang sabi mo ikaw ang bahala! Iniwan ko siya kasi alam kong mahal mo siya pero bakit pinabayaan mo?"

"Hinding hindi kita mapapatawad!"

Sising sisi ako sa lahat. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang nangyari. Umalis ako para hindi masaktan. Umalis ako kasi pakiramdam ko kulang ako para sa kaniya. Hindi sapat, hindi na ako sapat para sa kaniya.

Ang akala ko kaya na niya. Okay na siya kahit na wala ako. Nagsawa na siya sa akin.

"She found dead. . ."

"W-What?"

"Patay na siya. . ." pag-uulit ng kuya ko, si Drake.

Tumawa ako. Hindi makapaniwala. Ayaw kong maniwala dahil imposible. "Stop joking, Bro!"

Hindi na siya nagsalita. Tumitig siya sa akin. Pareho kaming natahimik ng ilang minuto. Hindi nagtagal ay nagsalita ulit siya."Her body found dead inside the hospital. . ."

"What are you talking about? Wala naman siyang sakit. . ."

"Stupid! She was depressed Benj. . . You left her! She tried to contact you, but you didn't even give her a chance! It's your fault!" he said while crying.

It's my fault? But I leave because I thought that she doesn't need me anymore.

"Nasunog ang hospital kung nasaan siya. Sinubukan siyang iligtas ng isang nurse pero mas pinili niyang huwag umalis dahil hinihintay ka niya!"

"She was waiting for you. . .Thinking of you even you already left her!"

"W-What. . .that's imposible. . ." ayaw kong maniwala. "You are lying. . ."