Time and Fallen Leaves :: jeongcheol

TAFL :: 06

*jeonghan*

seungkwan cried on my shoulder so hard like he couldnt done it before. i was caressing his back gently just like what i was doing towards to some kids and keep showering him with fluttery words. seungkwan may be loud and funny like seokmin and he was always gone berserk, but he has soft spot and now, all of you were witnessing it.

this was the first time i saw him crying so hard like this. ramdam ko yung sakit na dinadala nya. if only he knew that i wanted to transfer all of his problems and struggles to me, ginawa ko na. what i hate the most was seeing someone cry. it may be my friends, kids or some strangers, ayokong may nakikitang umiiyak because i was blaming and would felt bad of myself seeing them like this.

"its okay, its fine. go and cry until there were no tears left. . im here, you are not alone." it was the words i kept on saying to him hoping that it'll be effective. kaso mukhang hindi kasi mas lalo lang syang naiyak. i was really felt bad of myself for not being able to halt them from crying. "nandito ako. you will be fine soon." i dont know what to do anymore, he wasnt stopping from crying so hard. gosh.

it took more than a minute before he freed the hug as he covered his face, feeling mortified but i push his hands away as i was the one who wipe his tears. this precious little seungkwan doesnt deserve to suffer like this. he was so down to earth. and he was still my baby. our circle's baby.

"its okay, its alright."

he shook his head. "mum. . and dad. ." then he cried again and he was even coughing. i got panicked so i dragged him inside his unit and force him to sat on his couch while i rushed through his kitchen to find some water for him. my poor baby was coughing already.

i sat next to him and i gave him a glass of water. i helped him drank it because his both hands were trembling already at baka mabasag yung baso, it will add up on our plate at the moment. after he drank the water, i was the one who wipe his tears again using my both bare hands. he was still sobbing but i could feel how he tried so hard to control his emotions.

we gone silent at the moment as i waited for him to calm down while i was still caressing his back and sometimes would hug him. i didnt know if he'll going to open up to me or nah. wala namang kaso sakin if he couldnt told me about that. . mostly it was between his family, pero kung sasabihin man nya, ill promise to keep my mouth shut and keep his secrets safe with me.

"mum and dad. . they split up already." he wipe his tears and held his head low. he heave a sighed. "dad was with other woman already and he even filed an annulment to mum."

"my family. . my parents, they're gone."

"im sorry." i know what to say. . but those words was the one's that came out of my mouth first. "but its not your fault, kwannie. i may not know the reason behind the sudden split up of your parents but i know it was for the best. everything happens for a reason and it'll be over soon."