Time and Fallen Leaves :: jeongcheol

TAFL :: 19

*jeonghan*

seungcheol: what time was your first subject later?

my brows automatically furrowed after seeing seungcheol's message then my gaze went to where the time bar was located on the upper right corner of my phone screen and it was half past one already. what is he up to? why he is still awake? at this hour? dont tell me he was also studying like what i was doing right now.

to seungcheol: eight. why?

seungcheol: nothing :)) good night and good morning, hannie <3

i pursed my lips and scrunched my nose seeing that heart emoticon. hindi ako kinilig, nakornihan ako plus i wasnt used of seeing someones message with that kind of emoticon. though it was the first time, that made me cringe in no time. i replied the same and threw my phone again on the nightstand and continued studying even if my vision was getting doubled time to time.

it was already almost six in the morning when i opened my eyes to check the time. even if i was used of getting only two to three hours of sleep, my eyes still stings so much whenever i was washing my face or even i forced myself to wake up for a new day. geez. i dont really know when would my eyes could get used to it. after taking a hot shower, i wore my white tank top and slacks then i hung my polo on my shoulder, ready to wear any minute.

i just ate bread and coffee as my breakfast and thirty minutes before my time, i went out of my unit already as i was greeted by smiling minghao who're standing beside the railings katapat nang pintuan ko. he was wearing his unfixed uniform, his hair was a bit disheveled but what my eyes caught the most making my heart shrink was seeing the cuts and bruises on his face and he wasnt even standing properly. the left side of his leg was weighing too much balance.

"hyung. ."

"w-what happened?" binaba ko sa lapag yung medical kit ko as i rushed towards him to check him even more. and my heart just broke seeing the purple marks on his right elbow. "m-minghao naman. as long as i wanted to scold you, but i couldn't so please. . wake up. wake up for yourself. . hindi na ikaw to." i bit my lower lip after feeling my both eyes started to filled with water.

i was asking myself what did ive done wrong for minghao to deserve this kind of situations? i felt like the way i treated him as my best friend wasnt enough because look at him right now. he wasnt the minghao i used to know, he wasnt the minghao i used to have. . he was gone for himself and thats because of me. it was my fault for not being a good best friend and i didnt took care of him well. . for sure if only i could've, he wouldn't gone like this.

"why are you crying?" i got back from reality when minghao shook my shoulder as his brows was furrowing prolly asking me why am i crying. . what, crying?! am i?!

i slowly touched my left cheek as my brows furrowed feeling it wet. i just cried in front of him. . and thats because i felt so bad for myself that i couldnt even took good care of him well as a best friend and even as the eldest of our circle. i felt like i was a useless older brother for them. . mostly for minghao. i sworn to myself that i will do everything to be as good as i want for myself to be for them, but in the end, i couldn't. i couldnt.