Time and Fallen Leaves :: jeongcheol

TAFL :: (saythename_17)

*jeonghan*

i stopped from chewing the food inside my mouth as my eyes remained on the food in front of me while processing the words he asked and what he wanted to do. i heard it right, right? did i, right? he was asking me for permission if he could court me, diba? means, gusto nya kong ligawan, tama diba?

but. . we both know, i made it clear to him from the very first day that i couldn't. he knew na hindi pwede, i told it to him almost a few times and my sister also told him the same but why? i mean, why is he still asking me that when in the first place, he already knew my answer. hindi naman sa ayaw ko, hindi lang talaga pwede. my parents for sure would get mad or pissed and for worst disappointed once they knew that i let someone have my way to me.

i blinked thrice and continued to chew the food inside my mouth slowly, still not knowing what to do and keep sinking those words inside my head. i still couldn't believe that seungcheol was seeing me more than this, i mean. . i know to myself that seungcheol could be a huge part of my life but not like what he was seeing for in the future. this making a trouble inside my head. geez.

"at least. . you say something."

my eyelashes flickered consecutive times again and i swallowed the food inside my mouth before i slowly raised my gaze, meeting his eyes. he had been staring at me a little longer now for sure while waiting for my response. i felt bad for myself for making him wait, but i know to myself that i have reasons why i couldn't response that early and even right now that he was asking me to say something, at least.

"alam ko namang bawal. . alam ko namang hindi pwede, i was just you know? trying." he licked his lower lip and he leaned his back against the backrest of the chair he was sitting without parting his gaze to me. "honestly jeonghan, i never really planned this thing to happen. i told you before that i dont have any plans to court you. . pero wala e. iba ka jeonghan."

i swallowed hard. "w-why? i-i mean. . bakit ako?"

he smiled at me like he was smiling to a baby. "hindi ko din alam bakit ikaw, i just woke up one day seeing your smile inside my head makes me likes you. yeah, i like you jeonghan."

i dont know why but made the side of my lips rose up. "you're too straight to the point choi seungcheol. pumreno ka naman." i cupped my both cheeks after feeling it burning hearing those sudden confesions from him. for the other guys, they will find it hard to say their feelings towards to someone they love, but choi seungcheol was making it easy! how could he do that? geez. "why is it so easy for you to say that? you're too sudden." i complained still.

he laughed about it. "because someone like you is rare thats why im taking all of the risks just to tell you how i feel baka kasi mawala ka pa." the side of his lips rose up still not parting his gaze to me. i was getting conscious time to time from the way i looked like right now. kanina nya pa ko tinitigan.