Time and Fallen Leaves :: jeongcheol

TAFL :: 14

*jeonghan*

i covered my mouth and was bitting my lower lip to stifle my sob. i dont want lia to know that what she was showing me right now and what she was saying where she wanted to go breaks my heart. i had been a nursing student for the past three years and one of my subject was psychology and whats happening right now is as same as what i had learned. . that lia, wanted to go there. . to finally rest, and be happy.

lia seemed to be oblivious about me crying from the way she said and i even saw how she raised her right hand, trying to reach that DIY moon on the ceiling. i tried so hard not to sob seeing her desperately wanting to reach that cresent moon and how the way her hand moves like she was touching it. this moment was too painful for me bear, what more if the thoughts inside my head really came true?

i couldn't take it. lia was too precious to me. i can't lose her.

"i want to go to the moon. . and sit there while watching how the stars shines to me."

even the way she said it really pained me so hard right through my heart. she sounded like she was dreaming and excited for that to happen and that she couldn't wait to get there and call her own shots. her hand was still in the air and was still trying to reach that moon from above this room. kung ako nasasaktan makitang ganito si lia, what more for her parents, right? for sure they were the one who decorated this for her.

she jerked head to me once she heard that i let out a sob already. i couldn't take it any longer. sobra nang sakit dito sa puso ko seeing her like that. she stared at me then she tried so pushed my hand away na nasa bibig ko padin and once i had let her remove my hand, my heart shrinked once again when she was the one who wipe my tears.

hwr brows furrowed. "why are you crying, kuya han?"

i shook my head. "p-please lia. . please go anywhere but not to the moon please."

"why?"

i stared at her for a moment, thinking what could be the reason why she couldn't get there and when i had come up with an idea, i cupped her cheeks and pinched it softly even though my tears was still cascading through my cheeks. she was staring at me, waiting for that reason.

"b-because you were still young. and young kids like you are not allowed to be there." she blinked consecutive times right after i said it and i saw the hint of pain in her eyes hearing that reason. it was all that i could think right at the moment just for me not loser her. . because i cant. "so please, stop dreaming to be there. j-just stay here, stay here with me. . with us, with your family."

"gusto mo pang maging architect diba? and you also promised me to be there when i became a doctor already. . so please lia, dont go there. please."

she was still staring at me while i was saying those words to her. it seemed like it wasnt the one what she expecting me to say when she told me she wanted to go to the moon. i did told her kasi and promised her that im going to support her for whatever she wants in her life. so i bet that she felt surprise knowing that i dont want her to go to the moon. she blinked thrice again as tears cascade through her cheeks. i wipe it immediately and tapped her cheeks.