Time and Fallen Leaves :: jeongcheol

TAFL :: 100 (2)

*seungcheol*

"hi, anak. how are you there? pinapahirapan ka ba nang ama mo at nang step brother mo?" 

i shook my head. "no, ma." i lied and tried to gave her the smile ive always giving me though she knew me even though we we're too far from each other. "i owe them ma, they raised me, they're providing my needs kaya okay lang. kaya ko pa naman." 

kahit minsan hindi na, kahit minsan i just wanted to escape and ranaway from that house but at the end of the day, i was still coming back. maybe because ive known to myself na wala naman akong ibang pupuntahan. as long as i wanted to go to my mother, but i couldn't. first, i still need to study architecture, i need to finished college here. second, my father of course wont let me flew there kasi wala naman silang uutusan kapag umalis ako. third, i dont have enough money yet, visa and plane ticket going there was too expensive.. 

plus i cant leave jeonghan. i told and sworn to myself that i wont gave up on him and im willing to wait for him no matter how long it takes so im not sure kung makakauwi ba ko kay mama. or maybe i would, kapag sinagot na ko ni jeonghan. 

i heave a sighed. "ikaw ba, ma? are you okay? your session and your therapy, are those effective or are those even working?" 

she nodded. "it was.. somewhat. the doctor said i have a high chance of survival pero anak.. can you be here with me? wala kasi akong kasama dito, dito ka nalang mag-aral ulit. there are many architectural universities here."

i shook my head. "i cant do it, my savings wasnt enough plus diba sabi mo? you'll let me finish architecture here, just one more year." 

i didnt know that our whole conversation had been overheard by jeonghan when i turned my body at my back. i needed to end the call because i dont want jeonghan to hear amymore of what would my mother was saying. its not like im hiding something from him, ayaw ko lang malaman nya that my mom wanted me to there in spain.. tsaka bakit ko pa sasabihin sakanya? what the use kung hindi ko din naman yun gagawin? i will stay with jeonghan. 

hindi ako aalis. 

good thing that jeonghan didnt ask anything about it and it seemed like he doesn't care to whatever he heard, so i didnt bring those up to him ever again. we spend at jeju together with his younger sister and i thought she wouldn't like me since her aura was like her parents but i thought wrong. she was friendly, the way she talked sounded so much like jeonghan, the way she laughed also so much like him, her personality is such an angel too though sometimes she tend to hide but it always showed up.

this siblings was really something, they are not like what their parents. and that made me wish that if only my mother didnt have to get pregnant by someone like my father, i would've have a younger sister or brother too just like how jeonghan has.

i enjoyed being with these two and spend all day with them without me remembering that we were with their parents. and kung gaano ako kasaya nung umaga, kabaliktaran non yung nangyari nung gabi. jeonghan's parents had caught us kissing and remember that they dont like me for him, they threw a punch on me and even looked at me like i was a criminal.. like i did something bad that they wont ever forgive me.. when i do nothing but to love their son. 

"tell me jeonghan, kasalanan bang mahalin k-ka?" 

kasi sa mata nang magulang mo, it was the greatest mistake i had ever done. akala ko hearing those from my father and my step brother was the one who could kill me inside but i had never knew it would be from the parents of the person i was dreaming a lifetime with. pero alam kong kailangan kong tiisin. mahal ko si jeonghan e, and im not waiting for him this long and counting if what his parents was saying would make me give up.